being on disability can be cool for being able to get paid for doing nothing, but it sucks a fuck when they don't send me my checks consistantly ( Read more... )

is it so wrong to still think and refer to someone that may be in the past but still affected your life in some positive way that it's nice to bring up that person ( Read more... )

I had a dream last night that wouldn't end ( Read more... )

not enough sleep

too much coffee

confused and frustrated

need pain meds

crying every time before trying to sleep

i think i need more help that what i have

so sick...

....so sick

i'm not enough for me

-pill

you know i can't say anything else than that my life has been most interesting lately.

and "faith"... you suck. didn't call me and have me visit. i smite you. :P

anyhow...

fuck off
-pill

i never thought happiness could be so hard. i cry now from time to time. i jes never thought happiness could come this soon. but with a very heavy heart and the toughest decision i've ever had to make in my life. i know this must be done. i can't deal with being who i am but i'm happy i have her i guess. this fucking sucks but i don't want to be ( Read more... )

i don't know what the fuck was going on today but i've had a headache that jes refuses to go away. but with this i heard weird shit all day.. i heard a waterfall, the music i was listening too sounded like it was an overlay or soundtrack to what i was doing like it was in stereo and i heard an ocarina ( Read more... )

"I pictured myself with someone close to my age and not significantly older or younger. I guess it's just the way things work out when it's something you didn't think possible or didn't want possibly for any complications. Yes, age may quote unquote be just a number, but when it's true love... who's to stop it. When it is real and it is legal ( Read more... )

soo, things have sucked, yes they have. come back from training and i pretty much panic especially when i'm pressured to already be expected to groom at the speed of the others. wow, can a guy fucking adjust ( Read more... )

i told you nothing was good for me. not even her.

why does no one believe me?

::sigh:: fuck off