i've dealt with my ghosts
and i've faced all my demons
finally content with the past i regret
i've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
for once im at peace with myself
ive been burdended with blame
trapped in the past for oo long
i'm moving on

i've lived inthis place and i know all the faces
each one is different
but they're always the same
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So.. went to open mic at the gorsebrook last night.  first perfomers.. two guys with guitars... both needing haircuts, but that irrelevent. they werent bad...  but the mic wasnt loud enough so icouldnt really tel... but their guitar playing was not soo bad. altho slightly overdramatic ( Read more... )

Please understand my take on things. It is in my nature to not trust. Its not YOU its that i have grown to not trust anyone really.  I am jaded, and Im sorry. I know its not your fault, you didnt ruin me. But I am ruined nonetheless. 
Please understand that no matter how much i like you.. (and maybe one day i might even love you) i will always be a ( Read more... )

"Im so overdosed on apathy...."    No fucking kidding. really? fuck. its so true... i am almost worried about how cynical and apathetic i have become. but lets face it the world is fucked.  I am scared to walk down mys treet after dark... what does that say.. can you blameme really for being so cynical.  like.. fuck....

and so what if im bitter ( Read more... )

did anyone hear the new carrie underwood song?? let me paraphrase,,,  "i dont wanna spend my life jaded, waiting, to wake up one day and find, that i let allt hese years go by wasted.  ........   i aint spending no more time.. wasted" Yea.. so great in theory, i feel the same way. In fact, if were being brutally honest, i would liove to take on the ( Read more... )

Caffe Vanilla Frappuccino
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When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse.

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you loose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
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Daydream delusion,
limousine eyelash,
oh, baby with your pretty face,
drop a tear in my wineglass,
look at those big eyes,
see what you mean to me,
sweet cakes and milkshakes,
i am a delusioned angel,
i am a fantasy parade,
i want you to know what i think,
dont want you to guess anymore,
you have no idea where i came from,
we have no idea where we're going,
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So my horoschope this morning told me i was going to have an epiphany today.  hahaha. i have had so many of those lately... that i cant imagine what else is left for me to have an epihphany about.

Your words they make just a whisper
Your face is so unclear
I try to pay attention
And the words just disappear

Cuz it's always raining in my head
Forget ( Read more... )

So, this month's Cosmo quiz, has told me that I have a fear of intamacy. Umm.. duh. Fear of intamacy, fear of commitment...  i already figured this out. Why else would I subconsciously go out of my way to ruin everything good that i have. 
Really waht i would like.. is all the good parts of a relationship, minus the bullshit. But since life doesnt ( Read more... )