Hmmmm,

Maybe I'll hold off on telling LiveJournal the Homeric tale of Omar. It's an imbroglio of passion, betrayal, lust, love, confusion, fear, bravery, risk, heartbreak, and monogamy. I feel so conflicted! He loves me to death and I love him so fucking much but can I really give him consummate love without trust? No. So why do I stay in the ( Read more... )

What up LJ???? It's been a HOT ASS minute since I've written in you. I am writing from my brand spanking fucking new Samsung Chromebook that Omar Ortiz got for me for Christmas. Bless him. And I am not sure that LiveJournal is even aware of Omar Ortiz! So let me expound upon this crazy, semi-toxic, passionate, insane relationship. If I feel like it ( Read more... )

Today I got to sleep in. It felt good at first, but what quickly ensued were feelings of discouragement and listlessness ( Read more... )

So I have been amongst dithering emotions, thoughts, feelings, and whatnots lately. After joining GHFC on November 27th, I have been laboriously steadfast in going every day since. Incorporate a devastatingly low-carb diet into this gym-heavy mix and you've got yourself a ticking time bomb--most likely. Never mind the fact that the membership is ( Read more... )

So Pat and I have been taking trips all over the place. And that is an understatement. For example, we went to Canada in August for Pat's mama's wedding, which was absolutely beautiful. Then, we went down south to look for houses but ended up visiting friends and hanging out. Around Halloween, Pat drove the Tundra up to Canada to surprise his mom; ( Read more... )

I definitely need to stop worrying so much about other people and doing good deeds for them and start being a little selfish. I can't go out of my way to be an outstanding friend and co-worker because then I'll just end up disappointed; I will probably place expectations on other people to return the generosity. And I can't do that. I need to ( Read more... )

It was nice reading through all those positive posts that span from January to March when I was, in fact, on a good routine of dieting and working out. And then going back to the November 2010 post--where I was experiencing consummate misery and disgust on a daily basis--I realize here I am, one year later, in the exact same situation. In the 170's ( Read more... )

So as I read through my old posts--from when I was a wee lassie--I realize I was as boy crazy as a majority of my female friends now. All my girlfriends do is talk to me like I wrote in my LJ back in the day. This guy this, that guy that, this, that, this, that, blah. It's all good, though, in no way am I complaining. I mean, when I get skinny ( Read more... )

40 hours in 4 days, wisdom teeth came out yesterday, currently in recovery, and Vegas on the 12th! And because I knew I would be stationary for these next few recovering days, I squeezed in some Cardio X and gym time before my surgery! So my schedule is cram packed and everything needs to be on the fly--especially recovery ( Read more... )

I have been working out pretty consistently. That is, until I got outrageously sick. Now, I am miserable and unable to give up my shifts because I need the money! Without doing cardio or weight training for a couple of days, I feel fat and bloated--as if I've gained back like 10 pounds ( Read more... )