lily had a headache right behind her eyes, and they were the most bothersome of all, she thought, because she couldn't apply pressure to the pain with her fingers like she could if the pain was in her temples or forehead; her eyes would pop out, or something. she lay on the sofa with a cold washcloth over her eyes while the pain thumped so ( Read more... )

so yeah, i am about to enter a financial crisis, namely because i don't have a job (nor the desire to get yet another one that i'll just quit in a few months after my social anxiety gets the better of me...). i have bills to pay. car insurance, cable bill, whatever. plus expenses for gasoline and personal items i.e. toothpaste, shampoo, etc.
i have ( Read more... )

yes, today was like lukewarm water. warm with a touch of cold. on top of that the air felt like thick, nappy velvet, and that always pisses people off because hair goes limp and shirts get damp and skin feels like chilled rubber. so we're all walking, talking pieces of tupperware in clothes wrinkled not with body dew, but that invisible humidity ( Read more... )

i appreciate the comments re: yesterday's journal entry.
i would thank each and every one of you personally, but frankly, i don't have the energy at the moment.
but i did want all of you to know how much it means to me to have people on my side. <3
today i stayed in bed and skipped classes. it doesn't matter anyway because i'm failing all of them ( Read more... )

another day at the races. i am racing and my life is at the end of a tunnel but i can't ever get there before the gun goes off. we're just a world full of interrupted irises, anyway. insignificant blue dots and flash stains and optical undercurrents. retinas overtaken by visual asphyxiation. no one wants to look, but they do anyway. you look ( Read more... )

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i haven't posted lately for a lack of anything meaningful to say.
several of my lj friends have done what i am about to do, and i found it so fascinating that i've decided to do it myself.
so go on, ask me a question. provided it's intelligent and not too invasive, i'll happily answer it.

okay. so my head doctor told me that i need to "expand my comfort zones." (currently i only have two - home [specifically my bedroom] and school [specifically, back corners of classrooms where i can sit alone and no one bothers me])
so he was like "go out more and interact with people. talk to people you don't know. make eye contact with people" and ( Read more... )

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my week.
monday: sister totalled my car. the horror.
"boys enter the house."
tuesday: can't remember.
wednesday: a intersect b union c complement region 5 region 2 region 1 venn diagram type 3 quiz friday.
thursday: "help i'm being held captive by a mad english prof" -scrawled on the cork bulletin board in mciver 228.
(in staples)
mom: aww, this ( Read more... )