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Where I've been
2016. This is going to be my year. This journal is so crazy to me. Reading it is like reading a book about someone else. I can't believe I ever felt so horrible. I wake up everyday and I am so happy to be alive. So thankful and so grateful. I wish I could have known how beautiful life was back then, when I really needed it. I really hated myself ( Read more... ) -
It's crazy.
How years can pass and so many things can change. I wouldn't even know where to begin. I will post a nice entry after I go back and read some old entries. -
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I know I'm not that girl for you. She was and is that girl for you. But you see, I kind of think you might have been that guy for me. Because I know I wrecked it. I always do, it's kind of my style. It's just that everything about your face was perfect. And not to be all Justin Beiber, but when you smiled, I smiled. I laughed when you laughed. And ( Read more... ) -
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This time I thought things were real.
You said they were, what happened?
You were a priority, was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
you knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
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I just...I can't do it. I can't be half in your life when I want you wholey in mine. If you don't want all of me, you don't get any of me. It's like I have to do this for myself too now. And I can't change anything if were still talking...and it hurts so much. I cry all the time and sometimes I can't stop. I try to sleep at night and I can't ( Read more... ) -
The smartest shit I did was take the bullets outta that gun.
I have so much resentment built up inside of me. I've been talking to my mom about it, and she says I have to learn to forgive Matt everyday. And it's true. He thinks it's easier than it is to have to forgive the person you love everyday. I wish things were so different, I wish things would have turned out like you said they would Matt. I fell for ( Read more... ) -
Mmmmhohhh.
Today is the come down ( Read more... ) -
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Everyone has a past.
Good thing I have amnesia.
Because if I didn't,
you'd be dead right now. -
I am colorblind
I am ready.
I am ready. -
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Oh I hate this.
And you
And me
And us.
I used to know things.
But lately I feel as if I don't.
We were wrong.
She didn't live forever.
She is gone.
I am gone.
We are gone.
As for tomorrow-
it will be the same.
You and I
two different lives.
And that girl won't soften
she'll remain stone.
And one day
She will break
and you will break.
You'll be broken
Until you're gone.