So, I start treatment tomorrow.. My life is like coming to an end and I never really got the chance to start it.. I have loved one person in a romantic way in my entire life. I had that stupid notion that we would always be together and that if he fucked up I would take him back and that if I fucked up, he would take me back. I guess I really am a ( Read more... )

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Wow, this is a reallly amazing song! I am surprised, I never thought that I would like Death Cab for Cutie... I also didn't think I would drive people to throw shoes at me from the second story of Nordstroms.. I guess we all have our abilities... Hmmm, well anyways, the point was to let Miss Yukari know that Lucas's B-day is in Two DAYS!!!!! I work ( Read more... )

DO you ever wonder what life would be like for the people yu care about if you weren't in it? DO youe ever sit there and think that everyone would be sooo much happier if they had never met you? DO you wonder who they might have called their first love, or if they would have preferred not having a little sister? I would love to be able to see what ( Read more... )

Why is it when you love someone so very much it is sooo hard to let go, don't you think that if you loved them that much, you would be able to let them go and feel good knowing the person you love would be happy and that you would eventually hopefully start to like someone else? It is just reallly hard... Hmmm... Golf starts todayyyyy!!!! Bailey ( Read more... )

Do you ever get that feeling that is just like you are a bad person or not worth someone even though you consciously know you are just feeding yourself crapo and that you are totally worth it, but you can't get your total mind to grasp that concept.. I am just tired of being fucked with or wondering if I am being fucked with ( Read more... )

o m shit... I hate Valentine's day with all of my might.. I kind of want to shoot teh world and I really want to hurt some people. now... i am tired of stupid, arrogant, stuck-up, bitchy, people... i am tired of everyone thinking they can do whatever they want without people standing up to them. Well, i like to be that breath of fresh air that ( Read more... )

Hello... I am soo never mentioning him again...anyways, school sucks, but my friends are being really cool, especially Tiana and Jordy. I am sooo tired of planning things and they fail!! UHG!!! It is kind of nice being grounded, I actually get some me time.. I just sat around watching movies like Raising Helen who I totally want to be like when ( Read more... )

Uh OH!!! I ammmmm soooo nervoius.. The big date is tomorrow.. what will happen?!!! YIKES!!! Then this mutual friend of ours works at back bay inn which is this realllly nice restaraunt/ bed and breakfast was like yeah, you and lucas should go there tonight.. I work tonight..lol... I am really nervous, especially since Iam gettiung along really well ( Read more... )

OMG!!! I have a my baby jeep back!!! YAHHHH!! and it is in great condition and I only am going to have to pay $180.00 to have everything fixed... But, Norman (my boss's mechanic dad) was cool and already did the work and said that i can pay him when I get paid!!! Yippeee!!! It is sooo nice to have my car with the music back!!! Yahhhh!!!! Oh, and so ( Read more... )