Everytime i come home from school it feels like i'm not suppose to be here. I meant its fine when i'm in my house in my room, but once i try to get ahold of friends to go out i feel like they ignore me, or dont really want me around. I may be Beth's best friend, but her boyfriend comes first. Billy gets to be by her side 24-fucking-7 and yet he ( Read more... )

So fighting with someone you love really sucks salty dockey balls, actually its worse than that. It hurts both of u, inside and out. Its like someone drove a jackhammer through ur stomach to wrench u from the inside out. ITs one of the most painful experiences to be hurting someone who u love (more than you thought you could ever really love ( Read more... )

She went home to day... *tear* So sad. So now i'm alone here to think and ponder about all the lovely days and hours together this past week. The Rave... oh boy the Rave was absolutley fantazmic! Orgazmic!I loved it! I had a blast!!! I have pictures and memories and new friends... yet my damn blinking LED pacifiers are still not here! i ( Read more... )

So i always feel that i have these really interesting thoughts when i'm high, but now that i'm sitting at my computer i cant remember what they were. Like yesterday when i was walking to school, i fially realize who or how i picture myself, like you know when u have this picture of your perfect self in the back of ur head? ... well i saw it flash ( Read more... )

Smoothies, yummy! Oh i found a great recipe for a salad. Its spinach leaves, fetta cheese, dried cranberries, and a fat free rasberry vinegrette. Yummy!!! Ne ways, enough about food. So not too much is new. I dont think i'm as angry as i was in my last entry, but i'm still kinda meh feeling. Oh but duuuuude! i got so fuckin smashed at Brian's ( Read more... )

Fuck it, i dont care. Fuck it, it dont matter, y the fuck should u care? Today i guess didnt matter... its only number 13, longest relationship i've ever had, but it doesnt matter. Its not a big deal. Y the fuck should i care?! So this was my day, woke up sick and gonna go to bed sick. Wanna smoke but my session partner aint back yet. Wanna ( Read more... )

So i've moved into my new appartment. My roomie isnt moe in yet, she wont be here for another two weeks. so i have 2 weeks of naked all to myself lonely time. I dont know if that is good or bad, but i';m just ognn have to deal with it. Aling with the fact that i'm not gonna see my g/f for at least 2 months and that of course just makes me wanna ( Read more... )

So i have one more day to pack up all my shiz-nat and get ready to move and in 9 months i'll have to do it all again!!! My mom wants to wax my car tomorrow... ug. She bitched me out today for buying this squishy yellow elephant, i had to it was so cute and comfty and i like it. I had to get it and she told me that i took advantage of her. B/c she ( Read more... )

So I leave on Wednesday Sept. 1st at 6:30am to drive down to Riverside. My better half is coming with me which is very exciting and i'm so happy bout. Last night at 1:43am was excatly one year that we had known each other. And on the 3rd it will be one year that we have been together. Sadly we will not actually be together that day. THis of course ( Read more... )

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