so my last entires were before i moved up north for the summer. 5 months with no update... dayum. Now its november, and next week i will be flying home for thanksgiving. Im working at fredericks of hollywood and enjoying it for the most part. i love my discount, and i hope i can keep this job throughout the year. As much as i dont like it at ( Read more... )

i feel like i cant trust anyone anymore. I'm always going to be lied to and manipulated! Bt its my fault for allowing it to happen. I'm too gullible. I put too must trust in people, believe that everyone is inatly good, when its really that everyone is inately evil. Why do i have to feel that people trully are good and want to be that way. Why ( Read more... )

i've been fucked/ over once again... is it my fault? Did i play stupid again? OR was i actually wronged? Did he ever tell the truth? Was he ever sincere? I dont know anything... i cant tell truth from fiction.... reality is this blurred vision that comes to me at random times ( Read more... )

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I lost a losing battle. Another friendship on the rocks... and the tide came in smashing it to bits. I thought i'd be able to hang on, i thought she could too. I guess we're both wrong. Consequences CONsequences CONSEquences CONSEQUences CONSEQUENces CONSEQUENCES!!! DAMN IT! Is this how it always goes! are all relationships gonna end horribly, am ( Read more... )

So i'm sick of being worried about although its nice to know that people care. I'm sick of her being all depressed and hurting over me. I'm not worth this kind of drama. If shes writing me letters and not sending them what is the point Burn thenm then and see if it help you feel better. If people keep hitting on her why doesnt she try and change it ( Read more... )

But for some reason i love this song... it just fits, not sure how exactly but it feels like it does ( Read more... )

you know its going to be a bad day when u wake up to realzie you've now missed two of your classes that you already havent been to in ages, and are way behind in. Then there is blood all over you sheets that you JUST WASHED THE NITE BEFORE and you've got cramps worse than u've had in a long while. You're still fuckin tired from lack of sleep , you' ( Read more... )

i dont feel like venting twice so i'm going to copy paste. IF you dont like it then fuck off who gives a flying fuck what u care anyway ( Read more... )

i dont know how anyone can continue to care for me when all i am good for is fucking everything and anything up. I'm this horrible person that God should just trun is back on and walk away. MY mind is a constant battle. It fights my heart and every other part of my body. I think its slowly winning and my heart is feeling its effects. I want to take ( Read more... )