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[pinkangel19687]

Ok...so I just need to let some stuff out that I've been keeping locked up for a really long time!!

First, the good stuff...Abby is the only one that knew about this, but the doctors removed my "death sentence"...basically a couple months ago, the told me I had a limited amount of time to live, but they said I was doing much better.  YAY!!  But I'm

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[abbylizz]

o my god. jennee just shut up now. you know i love you more than like.. anything. you were there for me when i was down too. remember my brush with almost-suicide? you kept me out of it. so just shush cuz you know i will ALWAYS be here for you no matter how long either of us live (and i am SOoOOOO HAPPY for you its longer than we thought) well.. you thought at least.. i always knew the doctors were stupid. you're fine and i know it. you'll end up outliving coackroaches (lol) but its no big deal becuz ill still b here for you! i love you soooooo muchh!!! *heartss* abby

[pinkangel19687]

I know u love me, but sometimes I just feel left out of stuff...and it's not just u. I know everyone else who is my "friend" have other friends too. U have, like, everyone who went to Pueblo, and Christine has other friends from syncro, but it sorta bothers me that everyone leaves me out of everything, inside jokes, afterschool stuff, etc. But in case u didn't know, my mom dragged me to the doctor to be diagnosed with depression. And that makes everything ten times worse!! I just can't see the good in things or people anymore.

I love u too! <33 Jennee

[abbylizz]

hey honn i just gotta tell you i am so sorry. umm.. yah i agree with lisa.. i am like beaming with pride. but i gotta sayy.. everyone has depression babe. and i know you are more depressed now that the doctor says you should b.. but doctors arent always right. and just cuz they say you have it doesnt mean you cant b happy. you WILL feel better even if it means i have to like.. hang with you every single day to prove we dont leave you out on purpose. and if you ever feel left out you can just yell at me or slap me or w/e and ill try and stop cuz the most important thing is ur happiness. i luv you like woahh and so does the rest of the world.. even if they dont know it yet..lol
lov yah!abbs

[pinkangel19687]

U don't have to be sorry. Some days I just feel like dying because apparently i "have low self-esteem"...talk about Mr. Obvious!!!! My shrink told me everything i already knew...low self-esteem, no confidence, peer pressure gets to me, the "Sarah/Rianna incident" hurt me badly...the list goes on and on!! It's really not ur fault I feel left out a lot! It's my own fault for not just including myself in other people's plans (that's what he told me to do, involve myself in other's plans). Luv, Jennifer

[dbacksdiva91]

First, I just wanna applaud you for writing this. I know it must have been hard, and honestly I don't know if I could have done it. I'm proud of you. <3

It's good that you're going to get to see a psychiatrist soon. And I know what you mean about the psychological all in your head part. I tend to make things worse than they really are in my head.

Always remember that I'm here. Write me 2394 emails in one night, and I'll still read every single one of them. :]

Lotsa love ♥
Lisa

[pinkangel19687]

Thanks! Yeah...it was really hard to write it. And u could have done it! I know u could have.

I will write you emails like 3 times a week...but u don't have to read them. It just makes me feel better to write it all out, even if no one sees it.

Love ya!!!!!

♥ Jennifer

[anonymous]

Jennifer,
hey...
how come you didnt tell me any of this? Did you not think i cared?!?!?! so u thought that abby cared, and i dont... WDF!!
if thats what u thought, im shocked!
of all the people, how could u think that, weve been buds since 7th... and i always thought we were close :-(
that kills me that ud even think that

[anonymous]

oops, i 4 got 2 say that was from dani
ok, im not trying 2 diiss anyone in that, ok? i just realized that abby or u might think i was dissin 1 of u, but im not
i was just commenting
<33333

-Dani