Tomorrow I may find out if I get this job that I'm keen for. I'll be upset if I don't get it but a part of me has become somewhat used to not getting jobs so it kind of feels like the norm. If I don't get it, this will be the 4th job that I have unsuccessfully obtained at Trade Me. So I don't know if that is embarrassing or just shows that I'm ( Read more... )

I am feeling a bit of melancholy today. Feeling lonely and left out. Unmotivated and not much to do even if I were motivated. There was this work event that me and Court didn't get to go to last year even though everyone else was invited and we were sad and left out. This year Court is going but I'm not. To be fair neither are Steph, Joe and ( Read more... )

I've been going online to write this entry for a few days now. But any time I had something I wanted to say it suddenly sounded fleeting or unimportant. It was as though I only had one chance to state my peace and if I fucked it up then it would all be a disaster. Kind of ridiculous. You wouldn't believe how many tweets and facebook posts I ( Read more... )

I have come to the conclusion that I am just going to be happy to "be" for a while. I'm going to not think about what is next, not be concerned about missed opportunities- just go to work, do my job, and not give it a single thought once I've left. Oh if only my relaxed evening self could knock some serious sense into my morning self- blargh.....

How many quarter life crises can one lifetime endure?

I love the passage of time- sometimes it feels like all I have to go on. That things will continue to change, there will be new opportunities to take advantage of, new people will go in and out of my life, new places will be discovered, and new experiences will happen. I know I've visited this topic many times before, worrying that I'm willing my ( Read more... )

I've just found out that I did not get a job that I've been wanting for the better part of this year. This news has come as a bit of a surprise to me and now I feel a bit lost as to what comes next. As most of you may know, I'm a real planner. I like to have things to look forward to and be aware of what is coming next. So the fact that this is ( Read more... )

Everything is falling into place and life is going ridiculously well. How did I get so lucky ( Read more... )

Things have been good lately. Spring has sprung and it is evident everywhere! Drinks, friends, sunshine, Samuel, longer days, it's all on. Work on the other hand has hit the shitter. It's Sunday night and I couldn't think of anything less appealing then going in to work tomorrow. The main point of contention in the boss three levels above me- ( Read more... )

OMG super drunk. popping some popcorn. watching the hills so basically this is 2k7. I don't know, when was the hills big? just confused about popcorn because everything is so dyi in 3wc NZ. but i do love this new alice woman! she is a good bitch. end scene. might vom soon.