so i have not done one progresive thing since ive been back to florida. interesting. this week im going down to the school and getting enrolled for school in august. im not excited about it. i havent been to school in a while, and never to college and i didnt want my first year to be somewhere completely different than what im used to. but i guess ( Read more... )

I love to hate life. I decided. and im still sprung on one... and today would have been 23 months.

So I love my friends more than anything in this world. They really complete me, and i don't think I could make it in life without them. I have 2 more weeks to be here and then I go back "home". It's wierd thinking that Florida is my home now. Especially because ive been here for a month and a half and im so comfortable here ( Read more... )

FUCK YOU.

Im at my sisters now and the cats head is in my cup. i woke up feeling like shit and no one was here so i dont know where they went. i had a crazy dream that i kept drinking water and i went on these missions just for a glass of water and i woke up so thirsty i couldnt speak ( Read more... )

I really miss jake.. i fucked up the only good thing in my life and now im paying for it. i hate this feeling and i hate this need. fuck me for being me and fuck florida.

so, trying to find a job isnt as easy as i thought it would be. or maybe its that all the available ones just dont look so great to work at. but anyways, im hoping to find one by tomorrow. everything around this apartment is brand new.. i mean, BRAND NEW. most of the stores around here arent even open yet. and today i went to hollywood video and ( Read more... )

I dont feel comfortable here. Maybe its because I was raised in a place with the same kind of people all around me and now im living amongst the kind of people I never knew and the kind of people my parents tried to keep my away from when I was younger. im referring to the sleezy ass dudes that dont have any shame or any character. like the ones ( Read more... )

I think what i'm missing the most in my life is intimacy..I need to let go of the past because it's only making things worse. These thoughts in my head wont leave me alone and there's nothing I can do but listen. All I can think about is how much I fucked up and now its all coming back to me and it hurts so bad. Why is it that great advice can be ( Read more... )

This loneliness will not go away... All I can think about is going back to Arizona... my home. I need to get a job and meet some people.. but for some reason, I don't think that will help this empty feeling I have inside of me... I still have not unpacked my stuff, which i knew would happen. I have no motivation to ( Read more... )