Life is so wierd... so im in florida now and its such a huge change. I guess I can say it has finally hit me that im gone. I have no friends, no more apt 202, nothing I know of and its so strange. What's even stranger is that my mind feels like it is so much older than reality. I haven't even made it to college yet and I just feel like I should ( Read more... )

Hm. So i have not written in a while. Im feeling a sense of "Confusion" and not too sure how to cope with it. I dont even know what to write in here. Its been so long that i express any emotion to anyone, i feel so alone.. and its my fault. So to update, my mother had to take my dog to get put to sleep because she would only cry all day and my mom ( Read more... )

Im at work killing time and i have not written in here in quite some time. Its almost christmas, and school is almost over. YAY. Holiday party this weekend. Im not positive if im going yet because i dont want to drive that fucking far on a saturday night. we'll see. i think i get my numbers today for work. im gonna go insane if i dont get them soon ( Read more... )

I miss jake horribly right now ( Read more... )

Well its been a while. A lot has happened since i have last written in here ( Read more... )

im buzzed and its not a good feeling. today i went to school to find that the 7 page buddha infomercial i wrote was in the wrong format. fuck formats. its a good paper. oh well ( Read more... )

What a long day. Went to school and decided to drop my math class. why not? im just going to have to take it next semester. ill probably be in a lower math class because i have to take the placement test before i can get into a class. i called david reed and got my correspondence thing online all set up.. except that i cant sign in !! i need to ( Read more... )

I'm back at Gilbert and it's so different. It's wierd being a senior and only being at school for three hours, it's almost pointless.I dont even really see anyone i know anymore. there are so many new kids that all my classes are filled with strangers. but its nice being somewhere where you know the rules and the whole staff of teachers. its more ( Read more... )

I hated school today.. like any other day. i have decided to go back to gilbert, which is the most rational idea ive had, my whole life, i think. it just makes sense. im feeling like there is a part of me that is gone. i was wrong for thinking that i wouldnt miss gilbert's dumb-ass ways.. because i do. who knew there was an even uncooler school to ( Read more... )

i don't even know how to begin this entry. im not even really in the mood to write, but what the hell, theres nothing else to do and i have ended up sick, once more. i feel like my entire body is going to collapse if i get up once more. im hot, im cold, my head is going to explode.. and i dont want to think about it anymore. i went to the doctor to ( Read more... )