You know, I almost feel sorry for him right now. For thinking what he really feels about me is love. For thinking that the whole world revolves around him. He actually expects me to just wait around for him to grow up, well I'm not going to do that. As much as I loved the person he used to be, he's not that person anymore. I will love that person ( Read more... )

So I just had a really long talk with Chris's mom about all the stuff that's going on. I actually feel a lot better. She pretty much sees my side and agrees that I should be angry with him, which I was not expecting. Of course she's his mother and all and has to see his side, but she more or less agrees with me. While her and I haven't always seen ( Read more... )

So here I sit in the same place I've been so many times before. Going through everything wondering where my life went so wrong. So many missed opportunities, so many mistakes, so many things I wish I could undo. I sit and I think about Chris, sometimes good things, sometimes hateful things. I sit and I think about Him, the one that got away. He ( Read more... )

The anger is starting to subside for the time being. I'm having a brief moment of rational thinking, I can't guarantee that it will last the rest of the night, or even the rest of this post. I went to the doctor's with Chris this morning because I was supposed to get my blood work done. He didn't even come in with me, not that I really expected him ( Read more... )

I wish I wasn't pregnant right now. I wish I could just go out and get drunk and rebound and get over this shit so much faster. I can't do that though. I am pregnant and I can't get drunk. Even if I wanted to rebound I couldn't because let's face it most guys don't want to date a 176 lb pregnant girl. So here I am stuck being sober and alone and ( Read more... )

It's so hard to love someone so much and hate them so much at the same time. To understand but be angry. Part of me misses him so much already, but another part knows that this is what I had to do. Part of me understands why he feels the way he does, but another part hates him for doing this to me. Part of me wants us to be able to work things out ( Read more... )

"Sure I've been in love a time or two but in the end I still chose you. No one could ever make me feel this way. That's why it's killing me, what we're going through. Somehow thought between me and you our love would stand the test of time and never ever fade ( Read more... )

So I broke up with Chris today. I'm hurting like hell, but I know I did the right thing. I don't really feel much like going into detail about why or how or anything like that. I just had to do this. It was the right thing and I just have to remember that no matter how much it hurts right now.

So Wednesday night I got this really bad pain in my back, then it traveled down my leg to my ankle and toes. It got so bad that I couldn't walk for about three hours. So the next morning I looked it up on the internet and found out it might be sciatica, in which case I should call the doctor immediately. So I called the doctor's office and told ( Read more... )

I lost my list of addresses for my baby shower. If you want to come, post a comment or IM me on yahoo or aim ASweetPinkMonkey with your full name and address.