So look at what life has taught me, I texted Cricket a few times, and called and assumed that she needed 'space' so I made up some phony baloney story saying I was actually going to stay in and help my friend who'd just broken up with her boyfriend of two years, and thus missed out on a newburyport party meh I guess I'm just paranoid about being ( Read more... )

So I got home and ran a few errands, meaning I slipped on that tie dyed lucky brand dress, and headed out to pick up birth control. On my way out the door I was stopped by mother dearest. She thrust a plastic bag filled with miscellaneous coins in my direction. I gave her a quizzical look, she raised her eyebrows in response "What? Cvs is right ( Read more... )

I woke up to my mother coming into my room around 12 yesterday, I wiped the sleep out of my eyes and gave her a grunt of loving recognition before rolling over and falling promptly back to sleep. She wouldn't leave it at that though, mothers have this innate sense for knowing when their children are hurting. Even when they're not hurting which can ( Read more... )

As it came down to it. I loved him too much ( Read more... )

So. funny story. Up was really emotional and adorable and I lovvvvveed it but couldn't fully enjoy it beacuase I was fretting away about Al. Anyway as soon as I got home I gave him a call, he was with ben. "Hello stranger." The conversation was light and nice, turns out rather than avoiding me he's just a dumb dumb who doesn't think of the obvious ( Read more... )

So. Day three I've gotten kinda used to the limited contact though today it was literally NONE rather than the phone call I got yesterday. The morning are the hardest before the adheral kicks in or the nights when it wears out. Anyway I went from inhaling massive amounts of food on sat to not eating all day today. I took a bath cleaned the house a ( Read more... )

Today was better I woke up around 7:30 and went with Ian and Dave to my Boat. It was a pretty relaxing day fishing and just hanging out with two of the best guys I know. I say fishing but I was the only one that caught a fish. Coming home I had a message from Al about how his screen won't work so he can't call me, and instead he keeps calling ( Read more... )

I have to say my friends saved the day, first Ross came over and comforted me, followed by Maddie, Smo, Jack, Ian, and Dave. Honestly I don't know what I would do without them, even my parents were being nice to me. Aside from downing a quart of mint chocolate chip icecream the damage wasn't so bad. We watched Miss Pettigrew Lives for a Day and ( Read more... )

Feeling better. but it's hard to forget the way he didn't say i love you when he said goodbye.
only sad eyes.

I hurts, it hurts so much.
How can someone I love make me so uncertian,
How can someone I love hurt me with silence.
I hate this feeling more than anything,
I just want to sleep but I can't.
I just want to forget but I can't
Only he can make the pain stop.
Stop the poision from boiling in my blood.
Will he though.