I'm scared to. I have it all written though. Just scared.

Sleep eludes me.

Hello LJ Friends!

If I added you and you no longer interested, or never really were interested, in this hidden journal, you can unfriend me. Here is your chance. I will not be offended.

This message with self-destruct in a few days.

You wouldn't believe how many plants I have. I like working with my hands in the dirt, digging and ripping on the roots. The plants need my hands, or so it seems. And it is a pleasant ritual that gives me a sense of purpose and completion without burdening me with knowledge of things I can't do anything about (deaths, Palestinians, Bush, you know ( Read more... )

My sister and I were talking about "type" of men we are attracted to ( Read more... )

Some of my comments are going private. If I find I am being monitored by family members I'll do the story private too (yes, I've become paranoid, but good reason as you will find out). Some of today's comments are just too personal to be out there in i-land. Friend me. Once I'm sure you aren't someone I know in real life, you will be my friend ( Read more... )

I am beginning to think this might be better private for friends? I don't know how easy it is to search for particulars ...?

Today I begin, friendless here, my story of what happened this last year - a tale of friendship, infidelity, lies, miscarriage, children, rebirth and loss. Most people will think I've been evil person as well as an easily duped one. That I am both cunning and naive, both strong and incredibly fragile and weak.

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