I'm so fucking stupid! I think he's met someone else...he hates me....i can't believ this...i feel so hurt...i know that i've still ruined everything tho.... i wish i was dead right now..... i hope he's happy now....i know i'm the one who makes him unhappy.

I'm so tired, I wish I could be there...but i do make him worse, he's fine with seeing his friends...it's me that's the problem....i didn't even realise, i'm so stupid, i wish i could give him back time, I feel like crap, I love him so much and yet i've hurt him so much....i don't derserve him now.:( I really love him, he doesn't love me now...it's ( Read more... )

i know now....he deserves so much better than me he really does, i can't believe how horrible i am i've ruined his life, i've literally taken the past 4 years away from him....i'm so stupid i really am...he deserves to be happy and he is happy without me....i can't believe i've done this...i hope he can forgive me...i don't deserve him at all. i'm ( Read more... )

I don't know what to do...i'm so upset.....it's only me he can't talk to....he's talking to everyone else...it's me and it's all my fault....i hate myself so much. I've ruined everything:(  i wish i could make things better....i wish he loves me still:(   i can't stop crying...

i feel so alone............. i wish he was here so bad... we had a good night last night i thought and he even said he loved me back.... and we had a hug and kiss and things seemed ok... then i speak to him on msn and he wants me to get on with mylife and that he's going to edinburgh to work etc.... what has happened? i just want him back...so bad ( Read more... )

I really don't know what's going to happen...... i hope to god he's ok.. he just text me saying "i'm ok, i just need time. i'm sorry"  i don't really know what to make of that.... i text him back but it hasn't been delivered. I'm so worried i mean where is he? what's he doing? how's he feeling? so many questions left unanswered:( I miss him.... i ( Read more... )

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I had a text message at midnight last night and he said that he was ok but to leave him alone and he's sorry..... i felt awful.... i really don;t know what to do, i text him this morning then and he replied saying he was sat in the park and that he was having a really bad day and then i tried to call him but i can't get hold of him at all... i;m so ( Read more... )

Where is he? I haven't heard from him and i've text him and rang him.... nothing.... i hope to god he's ok, god i miss him so much.... i wish he was with me now... so i could hold him and be there.... i love him so much

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I can't get hold of him right now, he called me earlier and he sounded pretty down and forgot to take his meds.... i'm worried about him, i don't want to call him cos i don't want to push him away but then i just want to know he's ok, i miss him so much, i miss all the good times we had together.... infact one of the them was last night.... i think ( Read more... )