I dont even know what to say anymore, I'm just sick of the pain. I feel like everytime I find something or someone good for me I lose them. I know God has a bigger plan for this than I can imagine - I know I've seen it happen. With seth, the night he broke up with me and the months following, that was the most and worst pain I've ever felt; I didnt ( Read more... )

Just some thanksgiving thoughts for you guys, I decided I'll post what I'm thankful for.

• Waking up to fresh snowfall.
  
• Talks by the fire place (anyone got one??)
  
• Hugs from friends, especially guy friends, just because
  
• Hugs to make your day better
  
• Friends that never get sick of you, no matter how much you talk about one thing.
  
• Friends who are there ( Read more... )

Well I did it. I talked to Alex, though I dont know if it was a good idea or not. It might have helped me a little, like it stopped me from hurting in one way, but it caused a whole new category of pain. He wants space. Okay he can have his damn space. But its going to come at the cost of our friendship. Thats the only way I know how to give ( Read more... )

Why do I deserve to be treated this way?

Wow, what a day. It kinda started out like shit. I missed my friend a lot through the first half of the day. But pretty much a good chunck of second block I spent reading my Bible and it really really really helped me. Like it just brought anxiety to a stand-still and in those moments I was at peace with everything in my life. What a feeling! The ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm at a crossroad with about 50 different paths that I can choose from. (Just so you know this is about the situation with one of my friends, you should be able to figure out which one). I know that I have/want to go down the path God had chosen for me. I am thankful that He has chosen it for me, I just dont know which path it is. Mr. ( Read more... )

Youth group last night was awesome. There wasnt a ton of people, but there was a lot more than normal; enough so that in the end groups couldnt sit together cuz there werent enough seats together. Pastor Caleb's message was just amazing, and it touched even me. Though the message was mainly for those who havent been saved, I started crying. Not ( Read more... )

Well I think I'll start off with doing a quick thing on Revolve from this weekend. It was just plain awesome...though the girls were a little immature, drove me nuts. 10,000+ girls there, eek! The speakers were amazing, especially Tammy Trent. She was married 13 years or so and then lost her husband in a freak diving accident. If that were me, I'd ( Read more... )

I just want to send out a little thank you to my friends, especially those at Coley's Halloween Party tonight. You've all been there for me in you're own ways and it helps to know that I have people like you who care about me. Things arent completely better, they actually still do kinda suck but they're a lot better than they were like thursday ( Read more... )

I just want to be loved. Where did my knight in shining armor go?