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Reading my old posts and your comments has made me super happy. I LOVE YOU GUYS!

It's funny to think back and realize some aspects of who I am will always be the same and will never change. It's always the things you despise that seem unchangeable. I don't understand how one day I can love life and the next I want to die. I wonder when the misery that haunts me will turn to ash and fade away. It seems odd that even though I ( Read more... )

So, I am finally on track to having a real future. It's pretty exciting! I have a job working at McDonald's now, which, well, isn't the greatest but it's money and that's the most important part at this point.  Alexander is well adjusted and in day care, I'm dating a great guy, and I'm no longer associating with my ex and all his serious issues. I' ( Read more... )

I am so depressed. I am realizing more and more that I might be up against a major depression right now, and I don't know what to do about it.

So, I don't know if anyone knows, but I am adopted. I was adopted officially at 6 months old.  I'm 19 now, and I've already been in contact with both of my biological parents. My biological mother's name is Carolyn, and I have 3 half brothers, Matthew, Joesph, and Daniel. My biological father's name is Irvin, and I have a half brother, Tyler, and a ( Read more... )

So, I realize that I haven't even updated since August. A lot has happened in the last 3 months, some good, some bad.

Alexander turned 4 months old on November 30th, and he is the light of my life. He's such a beautiful, sweet little boy. He's making attempts to crawl, roll over, and sit up, although I imagine it will be at LEAST a couple of months ( Read more... )

Well. I'm almost 26 weeks pregnant now. One day left until I've officially, by the "40 week standard" entered my third trimester. I'm having a baby boy, his name will be Alexander William Fred, honoring both his dad, uncle, grandpas on both sides, and great-grandpas on both sides. William is a name that's run in Shaun's family for several thousand  ( Read more... )

Where are Heidi and Mikey? I need my cheerleaders! *cry*

tired. hungry. depressed. irritable. hopeless. broke.

fucking pregnant...and a week away from month six...and now, I'm single. and he expects me to do it alone...for HIS benefit. WHY?

fuck you and fuck your slut too.

My son deserves better than this, but I don't know how to start giving it to him.