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In the fuck are we all heading? I often wonder that. More and more as of late, as a matter of fact. It's insanity, all of this. I guess that's what makes life just so much fun. All I can do is sit here and watch everything float on by. Ya know? I'm just swimming in the flood. I can't start school until the Spring, hopefully, everything will ( Read more... ) -
Live fast, die young. It's better to burn out than to fade away
My mind is shattered, my body is weak, I get maybe an hour of sleep before staying awake for a full day or two only to get another hour of sleep as my reprieve. Everything stresses me out, I'm trying to take it one step at a time and noticing that I'm not treading near as lightly as I should be. It'll all be over soon, I just have to look forward ( Read more... ) -
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I feel so alienated from the outside world. I hate being here so much. I hate it so much, I'm contemplating going out and being a cop instead of sitting around and collecting unemployment. I would rather risk being shot and killed then live here. I opted out of going to LasPo...it was either go to LasPo and collect my BAH moneys or sit around ( Read more... ) -
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I feel so hollow. I do not see a reason. No point. No sense. No logic. There is nothing. This is nothing. You are nothing. I am nothing. I'm in one of those kind of moods again. Fuck my life. -
Just when I think I'm out
She finds a way to pull me right back in. I'm back to the same thing I was before. Damn it. Damn it all. I tried my damnedest to get myself as far from her as I possibly could, but it totally did not work. At all. I care about her a great bit, which is probably why I can't get my mind off of her once it starts thinking about her again. My ( Read more... ) -
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FML. So, my friend just told me that the VA is abt 4 months behind on their BAH payments. I'll have to get a job of some sort, in order to cover my bills. No big deal, there's plenty of jobs available, right? Oh, wait...fml ( Read more... ) -
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I am going home in a few weeks. I should be back home by the 20th. It's going to be quite a hollow homecoming though. I enlisted to get out of that place and now that I'm done with my enlistment, I'm going back to it. Damn. At least I have a car now, so I won't be imprisoned like before. Katie, I keep trying to get a hold of you, but I just ( Read more... ) -
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I have no one to talk to and so much running through my head. I want to cut myself to ribbons, to shreds, to have some sort of outlet to really vent myself unto. I just don't know any more. Too bad I have to wait until after 1, after my doctor appointment. Damn. -
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It's weird, standing at the brink of the end. The end of this thing I've poured my blood, sweat, and tears into. High school was easy, just the typical get up, show up, do the work, go home, repeat. This has been a grand series of ups and downs. I never really saw the world, just the uglier side of humanity. That was while I've been stateside ( Read more... )