things are moving toward me getting my shit together to have a life here ( Read more... )

i feel crazy right now.  i've been gone ten days sleeping on couches or sharing beds in four different homes, about to leave to go back to one of them for my final night. i could have stayed with another person from the couchsurfing website, but i couldn't stomach another night of meet-and-greet chatter when all i want to do is sleep till it's time ( Read more... )

feeling eighty million times better now. caffeinated, headache almost gone, and saw the most amazing space today that i'm pretty damn enamored of, with a fabulous roommate that i totally enjoyed talking to for 90 minutes and could have hung out with for the rest of the day, a block from the subway and prospect park, big enough that i could actually ( Read more... )

ugh. feel like shit today. i swear, the less i drink the worse it is every time i end up doing it. 2 drinks gives me a hangover these days, and i had 3 last night, compounded with the 4 hours sleep, so i am less than my best today. kind of wish i could have just stayed at tony's, where the bed is comfy, the atmosphere is chill, and i can easily get ( Read more... )

so not this girl, but mom insisted on taking me outlet shopping because she's convinced i need a conservative black suit in order to get a job (we'll address that notion much later). suiting appropriate for nyc climate and that fits my body was not found. however, i scored an amazing diane von furstenberg sheath dress that looks great (and will ( Read more... )

back in florida, and now things get complicated. parents are less nice than they were when i left, and having had a taste of freedom, i want even less to spend time around here. and suddenly i have another opportunity to get away, a fella who wants to take me out and give me a "dream vacation" and sort of make me not hate florida before ( Read more... )

we got into an argument the other night, about bdsm. oh honey, you have no idea who you’re talking to. don’t mess with me on my turf, because when you attack me in my house i will fight back and you will lose. anyway, out of this discussion comes the pronouncement that dominance play has been useful for him because he’s not a naturally aggressive, ( Read more... )

so it's finally time to leave, and now that i'm not working i finally have time to take care of many many loose ends before i leave town, and suddenly i find myself just hemorrhaging money. went to the dentist yesterday and i have like $2000 of work that needs to be done, and i'm an idiot not to try and do it here because it will be significantly ( Read more... )

so angry i actually cried sitting at the bar, for which i hate myself over again ( Read more... )

the official tally: 64 hours this week. not sure how many dollars that translates to, but i know i made $900 in three of those 6 days, so that's a good shake. i can also guarantee that the other three days were not stellar, but still. happy it's almost over, happy to have something good in terms of earnings before i go, happy to be home in my bed ( Read more... )