alright so its been a long time since i last updated this and im gonna keep it short and simple heres the deal. i dont care about anything. nothing matters. i gave away my first kiss. what ever. i have a boyfriend, couldnt care less. next thing im embracing my destiny. i understand now that i have no self worth so art college it aint gonna happen, ( Read more... )

dear mama and daddy ( Read more... )

if theres one thing ive learned these past 15 years ( 16 in 2 months and 2 weeks) is that family is the most important thing a person can have. your family is the people you go home to, there the ones who take care of you when your sick, they love you unconditionaly. to them you can be really messed up and they still love you. family is a persons ( Read more... )

okay so today was alright this morning my mom and i had an awkward time but i think everythings okay now.well now its time to introduce "the senior". as you know almost everyone has code names or whatever. anyways im starting to develope a little crush on him. he intrigues me, i like that. hes alot of fun. i know i know! i have alot of boy issues ( Read more... )

hey everyone im down today. i just am so sick and tired of getting my heart broken. i have a feeling im not alone. love sucks and so does everyone who falls in love. why must i love the forbiden? why me? i have another theraphy appointment on thursday with pastor rob. i have a feeling my parents are gonna send me to support group. come what may. i ( Read more... )

you haunt me, your lurking in the shadows of my memories ( Read more... )

a few of you have heard me say i dont belive in love, well heres the truth. i do belive in love but i hate it with every inch of me. love hurts people. wanna see how long works? watch this http://atomfilms.shockwave.com/af/content/atom_27 that is love. fyi the short ( Read more... )

well i spent alot of today kindda lost in thought mostly about him. i dont understand why i cant hate him. the reality is he is Doran. anyways so me and sara went to the varsity football game and we sat with connie, kenny, josh, domi and a few other people. it was halrious when me and connie got checked out by those agora freshamn. i think the ( Read more... )

i just spent over an hour outside looking at the sky. almost everytime i do this im always asked a question like"why do you do that you cant even see the stars tonight" the truth is im not looking for stars if i was looking for stars i would go to hollywood. no what im looking for is the smallest shred of hope. i hope that some where in the vast ( Read more... )

well my parents know everything. there sending me to a therapist who specializes in self mutalation. this is gonna be fun!!!!......not....anyways i hate being the fucked up child of my family.im now a burden to my mom and dad and i hate it..........im just so confused.......i still love him so much........