its not fair that my heart breaks so easily. why is this sooooo constant???? i hate it i this heart i want to get a new one. one that wont break so much, one that is kinder and sweeter. i hate my heart. i wanna change my heart...........i just dont know how...........

hello old friend how are you? i know its been a long time since ive written in here. most of the time i write when im upset. this time im blue and lonely..........really lonely in fact. i wish i had someone to talk to again, to flirt with, to make me feel secure.........oh well life doesnt work like that......farewell for tonight

wanna hear something stupid? i saw him on the last day of school, the 17th and i miss him so much right now. im like in pain i miss him so much.....im such a stupid girl and because holden coreccted me. im a punk rock princess looking for a garage band king. thanks jackass. uhhhhhhh i hate being such a stupid little girl, how am i going to survive ( Read more... )

WANTED: punk rock princess looking for garage band king!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Donnie Darko
You're a 100% Donnie Darko fan! You must have watched this movie many times, because you know it almost as well as Donnie himself. Hooray for you! *gold star*
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hmmmm well its confusing. i dont understand some of the things i do, why i always run back to being in constant pain, why i push people away, why i love hating myself. it doesnt make sense. i always become so doubtful of myself and people and like i just cant trust.im so scared of being with someone cause ive been alone for so long that being with ( Read more... )

well the school year is about to a finsh. its sad knowing im not going anywhere exciting and even more sad knowing that there isnt going to be someone waiting for me when i get back. heart break is a painful thing and im deffinatly not a fan. sometimes i wonder if the prozac is at a high enough dose. sure doesnt feel like it anymore. god i hate ( Read more... )

all around me are familiar faces ( Read more... )

hey, wow this sucks! i didnt make dance team. IM A SUCKY DANCER! next i feel like ive lost my identity. WHO THE HELL AM I AND WHERE AM I??? i hate being my parents barbie. im a preppy person now. i used to be a modern punbk now im just like everyone else. yipee hurray! im a plastic satistic. great. i dont even know who i am anymore. i cant even ( Read more... )

its been a while, a long time really. anyways marks gone, hes gone forever now. i guess now i really can say that i hate him.