Went to IBar tonight, the usual Sunday evening ritual. That boy Aaron that I think is insanely gorgeous was there, as always.

Cass and Wookie were there, along with a whole bunch of other people from work (the cafe). Tomorrow night is Kristen's going away fiasco at BBQ bar, and I so know that I'm going to cry, even if I don't get shitfaced, ( Read more... )

"you gave me something to believe in"

argh. why do i feel so directionless?
why do i feel like nothing matters except what i've lost or pushed away?
why do i focus on one singular thing day after day?
why can't i just forget and move on?
why do i feel completely powerless to fix it?

did he really scar me that badly? did I let him do that to me?
have I changed that much since the first time I left?

self-realization is oftentimes very sad. even sadder when it's brought to your attention by someone else.

Of all the bands/artists in your CD/record collection which one do you own the most albums by ( Read more... )

Will I ever be sure what direction to take with my life ( Read more... )

I've been in a super-funk lately. On top of being sick for the past week, all I've wanted to do is sleep and brood. I've done plenty of both. Enough to last a very long time, actually - far longer than a week ( Read more... )

I'm far from perfect. I know that. I wouldn't ever deny it. I fuck up, and I try to admit it. I'm fairly easy going in relationships. But there are a few things I don't tolerate. When you cross those lines, I can't ever look at you the same way. There's no apologies that can make up for it ( Read more... )

Z- Zodiac sign: Cancer ( Read more... )

Where all is lacking, the Powers That Be have for some reason or another given me a mission. Apparently that mission is to save orphaned kittens. Loki and Eisa (the orphans from Hurricane Frances) went to their forever home on Tuesday. Today, Mike found a feral kitten underneath his car in the Universal parking garage. He certainly couldn't ( Read more... )

Have I somehow lost every creative bone in my body? If so, where have they gone? I think this damned cave is sapping my artistic juices. I had no commitments today, nothing that really NEEDED to be done. I wanted to create. A drawing, a sculpture, a photograph...anything ( Read more... )