I have had five drinks of screech tonight. Its 40 percent of alcohol, and I know thats bad but I cant feel a fucking thing. I wont do this again any time soon, I promise, but tomorrow......well today is Todds birthday and the 17th was Darlene`s...I fucking needed a few drinks. I am sorry. but Todd should be 23. Darlene should be 21. They should be ( Read more... )

And this is what I feel.

So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you
Yeah, I miss you
So far away from where you are
Standing underneath the stars
And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things I never thought that ( Read more... )

And I knew for sure that I was in love with you when I stared at your picture and didn't notice all the hours that went by...

How amazing it would be, if you loved me too....or if you do, you would just tell me. I don't know if I am capable of taking the risk. I also don't know if I am capable of living without you.

ilu.

I am still surprised by the amount of revolt I feel when I see you.

You will get yours. And I will enjoy every second of it.

Chaste smiles and stolen glances are not enough.

I want to be happy. I want to be with him....if that is pushing it, then I would at least like him to know.

An apology, a yes, a hug, a date, a kiss, something...not nothing. I have to have something....Something good.

( Clumsy )

Annnnnd he got himself a girlfriend.

Stupid girls always getting in my way!!! UGH.

This Is My Life, RatedLife:

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And I can't stop thinking about you.

....and hating myself the entire time.

I have been getting HORRIBLE bad headaches daily...I think I need glasses, which is bad, because glasses look BAD on me....ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

oh and MY LOVE LIFE SUCKS.

The end.

When I was talking to Chris last, he told me that I need to gain confidence to be able to stand up for myself against people I don't know. Its like I cant stand up for myself towards them because I am too shy, or I don't think I can do it. But towards others that I do know ( Read more... )