But I hate rush ( Read more... )

So I am diagnosed as depressed, but only lightly ( Read more... )

but im in love with forbidden fruit...

the sculpted
sweet
honest
beautiful
smart....

and loving fruit

and I know its poison to me....and that I can't even touch the skin of the fruit without me cringing in my sleep.

So i lie helpless....

Have i died inside?

This year had several life changing experiences for me. I can probably list a few ( Read more... )

I know by the time u call me i will pretend nothing..but im really mad at myself....im a liar, deceiver, and now failure....i hate my standards....

Ive told two people about me..and me....

it wasn't my best friends

or people I love....

just people who I know will understand....and wont tell how horrifying my secret, by past..and my future is...

I love too much for them to ever know me....

Journal Entry....

Thinking about life...recently, i broke down several time in a course of one week, puking, crying, laughing hysterically, but mainly crying..re-evaluating my life. I can't handle it right now...

but then after having a bad trip in a car ride (smoking wise)...i realize i have so much more to live for...insane..aint it

I was super suck friday and sat and sun..........i also went swiming sat night..had 0 hours of sleep..and such..bad idea. By sunday, lost my voice...eto...and u know what suck the worst..is not being able to do any of the hw

....what the hell? seriously!