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Most of the time I don't feel like writing. Its the same old shit over and over. I'm sad, I hate my life, blah blah blah. The problem is changing it. I have plans in place. I have ideas. I do not have the want yet apparently. So here I sit in my teensy little house with nothing to do but stare at the walls until my vacation is over ( Read more... ) -
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I really need to get my health under control. I'm overweight, I smoke too much pot and I really need to let go of the cigarette habit. The only thing I don't overindulge on lately is booze and sex (which, five years ago was a totally different problem ( Read more... ) -
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Today is my Saturday. I can't tell anyone how much I love my schedule at work. Week 1 I work Mon and Tues, week two I work Wed, Thurs and Friday. It is part time, but the time off is exactly what I need while I try to fix things that are wrong in my life ( Read more... ) -
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I have a love/hate relationship with my family. For the most part they are alright and I love them dearly but they are a dysfuncitonal bunch (me included). We all have our "issues" (with the exception of my scarily perfect oldest aunt and one of her daughters). Plus we've always been taught "blood is thicker than water" and all that jazz. As a ( Read more... ) -
The Beginning.
I wonder what it would be like if everyone was always honest with themselves all of the time. The first response that pops into my mind is there would be a lot of anger. People would be forced to face their fears, their anxieties. Take me for example. I am the queen of denial. I can remember lying or making up stories to not have to face reality ( Read more... ) -
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I managed to get zero done on my to-do list today. I figured it isn't any big thing. I'm sure the world isn't going to fall apart if I don't do a load of laundry or dust the study.
I'm having odd little twinges and twangs coming from my lady parts, so of course I have imagined everything from my utureus falling out onto the floor in protest of the ( Read more... ) -
The Baby Thing
The thing is, about the baby thing, that its going to be difficult. Its going to take time, money, probably fertility drugs and maybe those won't even work.
I have PCOD, which many people have and have children with no problem. However, I am almost 36 and no babies. It doesn't take rocket science, people - NO ONE is that lucky without using b/c ( Read more... ) -
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We were supposed to be moving to the new house today, but with the weather it is not going to happen. I called and moved our U-Haul reservation to Monday.
Next time I move, I'm hiring movers.
I am getting a giant zit on my nose. Aren't I too old for this shit? I also have a teensy one on my forehead.
I bought a new winter coat yesterday. The one I ( Read more... )