for me, happiness is laying in your dark messy room, on your bed with lime green sheets!! I miss you ryan...2 weeks is killing me..i can NOT wait for monday

what is it with guys?!?! ok...so everything with ryan is soo crazy right now. I havent seen him in 2 weeks,he is in arkansas...and we decided to take a little brake until school starts up and im not 3 hours away... im so scared of losing him, but I know everything is going to work out. it just sucks right now. i cant eat, or sleep. ive been running ( Read more... )

im grumpy...enough said

GOD RYAN..GET HERE NOW

well last night was fun. it was great actually. went out with brandi and ally..it was fun. im hung over..and really want a nap. but that probably wont happen anytime soon. i miss my boyfriend..and wont get to see him for about 2 weeks. fuck that. uhg ( Read more... )

sick of pigeon..i wish i was in el. at least ash grimes was up this weekend..that was nice. ew i hate work i hate everything here.

umm...best night ever last night! Ryan is amazing! well, I drove to el last night..ahh..my boyfriend! im soo happy! he didnt get out of work until midnight, so I picked him up and we went to his apartment and just sat there and cuddled on his bed forever and watched tv. well, he is such a boy.. he never has clean sheets or clean towels. so I ( Read more... )

gosh, these past three days have been horrible. and of course it all deals with one thing. so during a brawl he said something about being unhappy and then his phone died. so of course i freaked, because that means im not making him happy. I dont know. I do know he wants me, which is amazing, but for some reason i feel crappy about it and my ( Read more... )

i just really want him to be happy. i just fear that Im not doing a good enough job at it, and that kills me. i dont know.... just being with him, i get butterflies whenever im about to see him...

woah...what a long day at work! im soo tired, I wish Ry was here to rub my back. but I did get to relax at the lake house with gma gpa, mom, daddy, alec, jess, charlie, aunt peg and uncle dave and of course mag pie. so it was nice. got a pretty sweet tan, im totally beating ryan!haha ( Read more... )

yes you, i think you are an ass. dont ever try that shit again. i talked about my boyfriend the entire night and you refuse to listen and still try to do shit with me. yes i might have been a little too drunk, but i did know what was going on and i would never do anything like that to hurt my boyfriend. MY BOYFRIEND. keep saying that over and over ( Read more... )