I have nothing left to feel.
I'm an empty shell of someone i can't even remember.

 I never write in this thing anymore. I just felt i needed to. i want  something else to be in my lj besides all the rest of the shit that has been up for so long ( Read more... )

It's always nice to get this for a text message , "You're a bitch! Nothing will ever please you and that's why no one will be with you. "

God! Nothing will ever change. You say sorry over and over again and how much you love me, but it's always the same.
You fuck me up inside so bad.
It will always be that way.
You will always be the same..

Today has not been so great. Aiden got up this morning and pulled  the covers back looking for peter and asked, "where is daddy?". I told him that daddy went home to his house and would see him another time. he got that sad look and asked again. i felt so bad. later that day he asked again and i asked him if he remembered when we talked about that ( Read more... )

wow! its really great to find out that peter has been cheating on my with LOTS of girls the whole time we were together. Before and after aiden. he sent nude pictures to girls and drove to there houses in MY car at 1 am to tell them he "loved" them and wanted to fuck them and now he seems to think my anger towards him is something he can just not ( Read more... )

please god let me stop thinking about this.
please god make this all stop......

I want to get this for Aiden so bad!!!!! Isn't he cute?

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I can relate to this more and more each day.....

And you are so lame
You always dissapoint me
It's kind of like our running joke
But it's really not funny
And i just want you to live up to
The image of you i create
I see you and i'm so unsatisfied
I see you and i dialate

i read this on a friends lj and it's just how i feel so i thought i would put it up ( Read more... )

Today i went to a baby shower and it was so hard. i just kept thinking about that part of my life and how happy we were. our new family and our new life.

I want to say i'm feeling better
I want to say things are ok
i want to say so much.....i can't...