im upset. so i want to eat. but then ill get fat, which will make me more upset. i guess i can wait until dinner. and then i wont be hungry and sad anymore. ill just be sad. i think sam should call me and tell me he loves me. or something nice like that. but that probably wouldnt fix it either. oh well.

-kristen.

i wish i could be numb like sam.

-kristen.

i hate it when you do that.

-kristen.

i have to take a roll of film for monday. the theme is toilet paper. i took one picture, of kendally holding some toilet paper. but it wasnt very interesting, and i dont think it came out, because i didnt know what i was doing ( Read more... )

the other day, sam said hed sneak over here today, since we have no school. i didnt really expect him to at the time, and i really didnt expect him to after the other day. but it would have been so nice to wake up with him next to me. and he never called me back last night. but i didnt really think he would anyway ( Read more... )

ok, im not really upset anymore. but i still hate carlos. i dont need friends like that. i dont want him to talk to me anymore.

-kristen.

i hate carlos. and now im all worried, but i cant do anything about it.

i told him that i hope he dies, but...i dont really. i just think what he said was fucked up.

fuck you, carlos.

-kristen.

today was pi day [dont ask, its stupid], and they had all this shit set up in the commons. i went with kristin second period for like two seconds, because as soon as i walked in, i saw german and sandra on eachother, so i turned around to leave. but kristin was talking to mr azor, so i waited for her. and this strange old man who ive never seen ( Read more... )

ok, never mind. samuel lasted about 2 1/2 hours, and he called me and were back together now. so everything is happy and i dont have to die anymore. *dance*

lover,
kristen.

sam broke up with me.

i cant think of a time when ive ever hurt this much. i love him, and i try to be sane, i really do. but i cant help it. and i dont know what im supposed to do without him.

-kristen.