Sometimes I just don't even know what to do anymore, I know I say that a lot and also feel that way, but it really is that difficult. I have no self-esteem and I just don't even care anymore. The one thing that I know that I do care about is my little Cillie bear, he puts a smile on my face every waking moment I am with him. I sometimes really hate ( Read more... )

If you love someone, let them go. If they return to you, it was meant to be. If they don't, their love was never yours to begin with...

I don't fucking even know what I want anymore. I'm so fucking sick of things turning around on me and just kicking me in the ass. I have no confidence left in myself, i'm fucking depressed and I wish I had someone's fucking shoulder to cry on, but I guess that would be asking too much. I'm a horrible person, a shitty girlfriend and I deserve to be ( Read more... )

I can't fucking sleep! I've been tossing and turning since 4:30am and now I am just sitting here, awake. Dammit. I hate this.

I have things to do tomorrow. Nothing really important. Just try to get a job and go grocery shopping with my mommy wommy. We really bond when we do the whole shopping thing together. I am either going to delete this journal, or make it a friend's only. Bleh. Decisions, decisions. I feel crappy, but Cassy Cass always make me smile when I can talk ( Read more... )

Small news flash. Last night Cass and I were on our way to Meijer and we got into a car accident. There were no injuries and everyone is okay. The funny thing is the guy who hit me kept saying "it's not my fault" when he was on his cell phone. Well, it was. He pulled out in front of me when the light was green and I was going straight and he was ( Read more... )

I really hope I get to see my baby love tomorrow...actually, today.

I'm very sick today. I'm weak, sore, dizzy and tired. I have also already puked. Yum yum.

I feel so fucking worthless. I know why, it's because I am.

"My haaannnds."