is it bad than instead of being excited for them, i am just pissed off about the whole thing and want it to be over as soon as possible. its not fair. i hate this. i hate them for having it so easy. why is it all so unfair. why do they get to be so happy, when i have to struggle just to be.

i just realized the last thing i put in here was that i was getting a puppy.
well i did, and he grew really fast!
meet ZELLER:


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Dont ask me to fit into some box, because there are none that i fit into. Dont ask me to change who I am, because i have spent to long figuring it out to make changes now. Dont ask me not to get angry when its the only emotion i feel. Dont ask me to pretend to be happy, I dont care enough to put on the show. Dont ask me not to defend myself, Its ( Read more... )

i now take taekwondo 3 days a week. its crazy hard, but fun. I am quite sore.

Next fall i will be a student at UIC again.

I went skiing yesterday. sooooo much harder than i thought it would be. I fell alot. but i made it down the intermediate slope. so thats good i guess. aside from my bum and arms being really sore today, it was awesome. I shall conquer this sport. i willl be amazing.

Well 2008 has started out as a "chelsea get your crap together" year. and i think i will keep that as my theme for the year. so far in 2008 i have ( Read more... )

i wish i could meet some one with simular life expierences as me, who would sit down and tell me that they think the same thoughts i do, so i wouldnt feel like i am crazy.

i am lonley

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