I’m pretty fine right now. The job has it’s good days and it’s bad days, but it looks like we are going to be reaaaally busy this week and next. And hopefully even after that, to maximize my earnings. Just hope the weather is good. Had some hairy days getting to work. Apparently, they don’t plow the roads before 6am. One day, I hit some black ice ( Read more... )

So I’ve been at this seasonal job for a week now, and I’ve gotten a lot of over time. 8 hours the first day, then 9 the next three, and 10 on Friday. Looks like the same for next week. I’m doing well, but it kicks my ass at the end of the day. Maybe next week will be easier on my body. A major downside is that I don’t have a lot of other time for a ( Read more... )

A couple Wednesday’s ago, I defended in the basement to look for a book. I stored some of my furniture down there after coming back from Texas. While I didn’t forget about the things I left down there, I didn’t really do a through check of them. I knew a couple of them had some water damage on the out side of the box, but even then I didn’t check ( Read more... )

Not a lot to talk about this week, unless I monologue again about how I’m a complete failure. I had two interviews a couple weeks ago.  Didn’t get the one that would be a full time job, still waiting to hear back on the Part time one. The interview for that one went well, I think. But I’m not sure I’ll get it. And even if I do, I’ll have to get ( Read more... )

I've had 8 interviews this year of 64 jobs I've applied for, and I've blown them all. Some of it might have been there were better qualified people, but I think some of my problem is also not being able to express myself well verbally. I've made no secret that I always feel better expressing myself. My biggest problem is I have a tendency to get ( Read more... )

I was half way through writing this week's entry, when I thought, "I can't post this, it's shit!"  And it was. It was just a bunch of whining about how much I don't like myself or my life right now or how stupid I think I am.  It was a mess, jumping from thought to thought with no rhyme or reason. It just wasn't doing me any good ( Read more... )

The only thing noteworthy I have accomplished all year is an epic amount of biking.  My trips on the bike have been getting progressively longer and longer the better the weather got. I'm not sure why I do it, but I think it has something to do with the fact that it gets me out of the house and away from here, if just for a bit. And it really doesn ( Read more... )

I'm just not in the mood to write about anything this week. Thought I had something lined up, but I didn't get called back for another interview.  So I got an idea of what I should do next. I just need to do it. But I can't, for some reason. I don't know. This year just hasn't been good for me.

It's dark, but that's why you are here. The world has turned its face from the light hours ago. The warmth of the day has gone too. The air is mostly still though, but occasionally you feel a light, almost pathetic gust pass across you. The only major natural light comes from a crescent moon, but soon the world will turn away from it too. Unnatural ( Read more... )

This hasn't been a good week. Fuck, it hasn't been a good year for me. I've been more heavily depressed for longer than I have been in a very long while, and I just can't see an end to it. I've felt this bad before, but usually I'm able to climb back out of it. I can probably find a half a dozen entries where I've done just that, so I'm not sure ( Read more... )