last night was odd, sharing so much with her. I really opened up, i told her some things i didn't think she would believe, I told her some things i'm afraid to tell people. I misjudged her, she's a lot more open-minded than i thought she was. Haha, she keeps getting better and better. it was really nice telling her that stuff, it freaked her ( Read more... )

I went fourwheeler riding with my brother yesturday, it's the wierdest thing, I always got such a thrill from it before, from doing things that are dangerous. i would always hit steep hills and drive insanely fast around curves...but not yesturday. it seems to have completely lost it's thrill, I no longer get a thrill from danger. Instead I ( Read more... )

There is a very good reason why people think I am so weird. I believe it's because my mind doesn't work like most people's minds do. I don't think of the same things, most people do. Sometimes people pick things up that I completely miss, it makes me appear scatterbrained sometimes, maybe even slow. And there are other things I pick up ( Read more... )

I was reading some articles on beauty today. You know, some idiots actually think that the faces we consider the most beautiful are simply the faces we recognize as being most human. the morons actually made a model you can superimpose over anyone's face to test that. Everyone that conforms to the stupid thing that i've seen is ugly. No facial ( Read more... )

An eternity in a moment ( Read more... )

I realized something about other people tonight. Even if life is short, even if our accomplishments don't really mean much, i now know why people drive on. Happiness. I felt such a wonderful feeling tonight it's almost indescribable, I had so much fun, I can't imagine dying tommorrow and not having more moments like that in my life. I can't ( Read more... )

*sigh* Sometimes I just wanna die, sometimes I wanna live forever beside her. But I never wanna let go. You know, there was a point when I accepted being alone, a point where I was ready to try and live my life like that, I set goals, I thought I could live at least content, if not happy. It's like committing yourself to death, you know it's ( Read more... )

I haven't posted in a long long time 0_0. I haven't had the need, Wing-Sze satisfies my need to talk. Won't get to talk to her very long tonight though, so I guess I'm a lil lonely. I've had many dreams about her in the past couple of weeks, had a really nice one a couple of days ago, just talking to her throughout the dream. She makes me ( Read more... )

it was a really odd dream really. See, I talked to Wing-Sze until...I don't really remember, but it was REALLY late last night, or really early in the morning, depending on how you look at it. It's amazing we still have so much to talk about. Anyway, that's not what i wanted to post. I wanted to post about this strange dream I had. I was in ( Read more... )

I can't handle this feeling, just found out Wing-Sze might get sent to the sandbox... feel like crying again, I was so afraid, a few years ago, that she'd be sent to Afghan, and now I feel that same fear, though I seem to be able to hold back the tears this time, it still doesn't keep me from being so afraid. And that dream, her feelings, how can ( Read more... )