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It's been a while (since I could hold my head up high?)
It's always interesting to me to see the considerable gaps in my LJ entries and think about all of the things that might have happened and what importance they may or may not have had and how they'll never be "immortalized" in this fucking shithole of a journal and I can't decide whether or not I'm glad about this fact. Somewhere between apathetic ( Read more... ) -
Home is where the cesspool is
It's funny how I always seem to find myself back here. It's almost like the one constant that I have in my life. On the wonderful thing that is the Internet, anyway. A place full of misery and depression. A wonderful storehouse of bullshit and stupidity that I can always come back to. Warms my heart. Really. Maybe it'll disappear when this site ( Read more... ) -
Need faith to make me numb
Here I am. Sitting at the computer. Awake and fucking around doing absolutely nothing before work because apparently sleep is fucking overrated or something. I can't tell if I feel more bitter, sad, or just generally depressed for no reason in particular or just every reason in particular. I wonder sometimes if my thought processes or feelings are ( Read more... ) -
All roads lead to Hell
Sometimes I feel as if I've "forgotten" about this website, but that isn't really the case since I do check some communities on it, but I don't actually post anything. I couldn't tell you why that is, exactly. Perhaps nothing seems worth mentioning. Perhaps I'm tired of hearing myself complain. Perhaps I don't really have anything that really needs ( Read more... ) -
The blue bus is calling us...
Since the job fair at Home Depot, I haven't really bothered trying to look for another job, in spite of how awful my hours at work have been. I've been called in several times, and accepted shifts from other people, so it does make my pittance more manageable but... I realize that I should find a more stable job soon. I just haven't really been ( Read more... ) -
The world is a ploy; a leash of employ
So apparently I really need to find a new job as my current one is no longer giving out any hours (literally) and unlike some people, I cannot afford to live on absolutely nothing. I can live off of very little, but absolutely nothing is beyond even my capabilities, I'm afraid. There's a job fair today somewhere that has 3 different times, which is ( Read more... ) -
Crown me with the pure, green leaf
I sometimes find myself wondering if a particular someone continues to stalk my LiveJournal, and for that particular reason, I typically exercise some small amount of caution in what I write, if not a whole lot. It's most likely silly, pointless, and slightly delusional to think so, but I have been surprised by such things in the past. Apparently ( Read more... ) -
Oh look, I skipped a month...
And the world will never know the difference. Or so one would think. Or just me. I don't suppose it really matters either way, but that's how it goes over here. Whoop whoop ( Read more... ) -
A dull roar, perhaps
I don't remember how long ago it was, perhaps a month or more, but I had random thought while walking to work one night. Well, more of a "fantasy" than a thought, but before you intend to turn that into something perverse, silly, and genuinely stupid, let me quickly ruin it for you. I was imagining a scenario where an individual tried robbing me at ( Read more... ) -
The world ends with a roar
For a split second I had felt like blathering on about the unimportant shit in my life, but now that it comes right down to it, I'm not entirely certain that I actually feel like nauseating myself with all the boring fucking details. Will I do it anyway? I don't know. I really don't fucking know. I can't fucking sleep and I'm fucking annoyed as ( Read more... )