holy shit it's been so long, i forgot my password and how this all works. i dont know why i felt compelled to write. i was reading a journal from a girl at my work. she is 17 or 18 and crazy. reminds me alot of myself. all screwy and such. what a shocker im not going into pre med...bio major, getting masters in sexology-yep its a real major. my ( Read more... )

so im in sonoma this weekend-heading towards san francisco.im very happy. drive was long. found out i have 2 more yrs at mt sac then premed then med school. i think manster might be a lil apprehensive cus im gonna be gone till sunday and plan on getting fucked up in the mean time. oh gotta buy pot for my sis. she gave me some spending money. bleh ( Read more... )

couldnt sleep last night so i got about 3-4 hrs of sleep before i had to go to work. 2 of my cd's are missing si that sux. and the girl who worked before me is stupid. got off work, went home to brush my teeth(i forgot) then went to venice beach w/ katie and nicole. walked around the beach and stands, got our touristy henna tattoos then looked at ( Read more... )

ok so i was going thru my journal and i realized i would like to update more. it was sort of a trip. i didnt write about the first time i met manny but i had forgotten a lot of stuff. we met april 13th at a party. our first date was may 11. we were "official" may26. soon to be a year. i totally forgot how put off i was by him. sort of funny. i ( Read more... )

so i got a letter from a retreat i went on last yr. i wrote it 2 myself. i thought i would have been more excited but i wrote stupid stuff. oh well. had a lot of stuff about "letting go and how it still hurts" hmm maybe its a look at how much of grown past everything ya know. i mean now i can talk about it w/o feeling guilt. like i just want people ( Read more... )

i have to work tomarrow and i will be very bored and i need more money desperately. almost attacked by wild dogs in big bear. kris called. ever know anyone who was so intense that after u visit ur left drained and confused. thats kris. and theres the part where im trying to turn him straight even tho i dont think i would ever date him.tilted uterus ( Read more... )

hi, my name is amie and i'm a sexual abuse survivor. i hate that term but it is true when u break it down. it was my 13th bday when it first happened. i was waiting in my (ex) brother-in-law's apt so the rest of my family could decorate for my party. as we were waiting he started to tickle me. we did this sort of stuff b/c i had known him since i ( Read more... )

eh cant think of nuthin to say

ahem. so its been a while i guss. this thing is so damn frustrating. school is keeping me very busy. i went thru my "favorite places" links and cleaned it up a bit.. deleted alot of stuff on depression which felt good. i know i still fall into depression but there is this good feeling that i have from growing up. im learning lots about myself and ( Read more... )

Ive tried to upadate this a couple of times and it gets deleted, then i get pissed and ignore the computer...well its time to try again ( Read more... )