"This is not the sound of a new man or crispy realization; it's the sound of the unlocking and the lift away ( Read more... )

"The thing women have got to learn is that nobody gives you power. You just take it ( Read more... )

"Ships are launching from my chest ( Read more... )

i miss that insatiable i-love-you-i-want-you-i-need-you feeling ( Read more... )

i'm losing myself here. but i'm also convinced i never really had myself either. i go through moments of, what i believe to be, clarity and then something happens that challenges that clear vision and everything goes gray again ( Read more... )

I really wanted to start a new journal. I wanted to make my move to "blogger". I tried a couple of times in the past, but it never really caught on even though it's more convenient, it syncs with my Google account and it would be nice to have a fresh start; no more baggage of the past. But, I can't do that. Fact: this journal has more of my history ( Read more... )

at least when we were graduating from high school and moving on to college we knew monthsandmonths in advance where we'd be come september.

graduating from college in 12 days with no idea where i'll be in 13.

liberating and scary all at the same time.

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

that is all i feel right now.

honest discoveries/contradictions:

i take life too seriously.
i'm ready for something stable.

christmas seems to get further and further away from the christmas i remembered from my childhood every year. it's so strange how the adults worked so hard every year to develop and foster traditions, make sure everyone looked perfectly for the part, and pretended, just for the day, that nothing was wrong. now, it's totally different. we all ( Read more... )