most times i struggle to let my gaurd down only because it was never there from the start. i observe, i learn, i love, i leave myself completely vulnerable to the world, i live in the moment.. but at my age, those moments always end and a new era begins. now, usually i can handle such abrupt changes because usually i'm secure, knowing i put my ( Read more... )

the thunder's shaking down memories i've kept hidden in autumn tree-tops for weeks and you'll never understand where i stand with this storm at this particular moment in time. the scent, the sound, the freezing rain.. it's enough to send me to my grave. happy, might i add ( Read more... )

and though i have known him from rough edges to ravishing gentleman, i will never know him well enough. though i have held him in a hundred places from the blue bed to the bus station, i will never hold him close enough ( Read more... )

there is something in the air, that's for sure. i woke up this afternoon with the sun in my face and a resolution in my lungs;

smile;
for the love of god, laugh.
wash these hands,
forget the sins they've perpetrated
and fucking livecameron's death is something i may never fully recover from, but i can't keep avoiding new friendships for the ( Read more... )

studying the pictures from my quiet and spontaneous escape to san antonio last weekend has been burning my retinas with regret for days; so many lights slurred together, you can almost feel the heat from the streetlights and taste the pollution in the airwaves ( Read more... )

my hardrive is eighty-two percent full of pictures and documents, fiction, non-fiction, art-work, masterpieces, and over 4,000 songs that act as my very own soundtrack ( Read more... )

i've been drawing blood while making love, love, love is the best sensation when the streets are devoid of a fight to pick. i'm ready to take the city by storm. i think it's time everyone focused on me. i could spit in their face, yet they'd still kiss my feet. everyone feels the need to walk on fucking eggshells if their within a ten mile radius ( Read more... )

inanimate:
- lacking the qualities associated with living, breathing organisms.
- see also, dead. see also, cameron. see also, god. see also, yourself.

reality:
- the quality or state of being actual or true.
- see also, fiction. see also, fabrication. see also, your reflection. see also, my motives.

okay, god. okay, world.
hello, "the big

the crocodile continues his song; tick-tock, tick-tock. what is to become of my expiring disposition with such abrupt lack of control? my treasured song-bird has withered before her time, leaving me with nothing but a bedroom wall decorated with her smile and happy memories that tear me to pieces. is it not enough that the town muse had to be cut ( Read more... )

long time. long, long time. when really, it hasn't been that long at all.

time. what an odd little concept.