its late. i dont know why im still awake. tonights been lame. i want this weekend to be thrilling. seize the day bitches.

if hell exists, phil witcher is going there. i've never hated someone so much in my entire life. actually, i've never hated anyone in my entire life except for this piece of shit.

really? my life is this ridiculous? wow.

i know what i want. but im not sure if im doing the right thing. i feel like my brain is overflowing with thoughts and stress and decisions and explanations and choices and confusion and relief and doubt and too much to comprehend.

seriously, God, if you exist, it's time to stop fucking with me, please.

i really hate when customers come in with a giant smile like i should be excited to see them. i'm glad they can't hear my thoughts.

Lighthouse: To see a lighthouse in your dream, signifies that you are seeking guidance during your times of hardships and turmoil.

last night i dreamt i was climbing to the top of a really tall light house at night. it was facing the sea.

the hull is closing in
the water is above my ankles
and i still can't get you off of my mind.
i don't think that we can pull this one off.
we shall see, time will tell
what is time and why does it
taste like salt water inside of my mouth?
someday I will sail again,
to a distant shore, far away.

smitten:
    -adjective

1. struck, as with a hard blow
    2. grievously or disastrously stricken or afflicted
    3. very much in love

It was not easy to climb the steep staircase, whose progress was accompanied by a gradual thinning of the gloom in which it grew, and they climbed for such a long time that out of boredom, Cincinnatus began counting the steps, reached a three-digit number, but then stumbled and lost count. It grew lighter by degrees. Exhausted, Cincinnatus was ( Read more... )

Lauren and I are moving into a beautiful home on S. Park Avenue in Historic Sanford next week. We're going to be living with Emily and Gilley too. It was built in 1920. It's a faded blue color on the outside. A friendly Hispanic man named Bobby lives upstairs. It's on a brick road minutes away from a large wooden playground and tons of rundown ( Read more... )

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