i sat up reading old entries of journals.
i sit here regretting every word i read.
simple reminders of simpiler times.
i do not wish to continue this journal.

no more plastic people.
no more plastic realities.
no more plastic feelings.
no more plastic words.
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"Carolyn, must you always be running? You're always out or locked up in your room. Do you even notice what is around you? Can you see the good, the beauty? Stop trying to ignore the bad by ignoring everything."

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From the very first day that you were born ( Read more... )

today just reminds me of the people i miss,
the people that miss me, and
those who have forgotten i exist.

that awful day..... in 1989

i'm sad.
i'm lonely.

i am alone.

the silence isn't helping. it never does.

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im suppose to be calling into work right about now.
to see when they want me to come in.
laying on the couch seems better.
fatass

driving in your car-
i never, never want to go home.


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