I think I might've been given THE most confused mind on the face of this earth and its history of mankind. Okay, that probably is way overshot, but it feels like it. Feelings are so invalid. I remember I felt this way so many times before and now that feeling is gone, and here it is again in another form... and I could swear at this moment it is so ( Read more... )

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house ( Read more... )

I am a chamelion. And I don't remember where my home is.

This life has been a test. If this had been an actual life, you would have received instructions on where to go or what to do.

I am trying so hard to be selfless. It's difficile.
I'm excited about Salzburg a lot, but also kindof worried.
The human will is a lot stronger than I ever knew.

Those are today's three thoughts.

So I've come upon the fact that you wake up in whatever mood you feel asleep in.

And this is a most remarkable discovery.

Aha! I figured it out!

It's like as I'm reading these really old entries I realize that at this moment I am me, and that I am so different from the me at 21 that I thought I would be, and it's just almost comical how different things turn out.

That's all I meant from the last rambling. Just to let anyone who cares know. Or make myself feel

In a desperate search for something I either had lost or forgotten I had always curiously possessed, I am going through all my journals. The real ones in a little box at the head of my bed, the ones with titles and the years they span, all sixteen of them. And as I read the words and some of the crazy things my mind has come up with, I start to ( Read more... )

I had THE most hilarious dream and I thought I should tell you. It's actually one of those dreams that stirs an emotion that feels unfamiliar. An unfamiliar feeling that feels something like sadness, nostalgia, disappointment, excitement, regret, butterflies in the stomach, and reading a really great novel that you don't want to ever end. This is ( Read more... )

Why is it that we are taught to dislike ourselves? We are taught it is likeable to not like yourself.. like finding reasons to criticize yourself makes you humble. I think that even though it's basically a societal thing, we don't like ourselves because it's easier. It's easier to say you're too dumb for that, you're not capable of accomplishing ( Read more... )

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