someday i will get out of wage slavery. my health and happiness are not worth a 9-5...or 7-5....or 7-12...

Well you bit my lip and drew first blood ( Read more... )

“People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life ( Read more... )

I am perpectually in flight mode. Always one foot out the door, tip-toeing around these landmines. I've learned it is so hard to pay attention to what my hands are doing when these blue eyes are scrutinizing me. I shrink, I drown, under that direct gaze. I die, as if laser beams are knocking me to the floor. I am a puddle. I need to be a wall. No, ( Read more... )

"Just a day" he said down to the flask in his fist,
"Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year."
Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,
But, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.

Old purgings of my hard drive from the winter months ( Read more... )

If only pure sweetness was offered, why's this bitter taste left in my mouth?

you see the glaring ugliness of our beautiful, private things when you expose them to the light. our rituals look silly when held up for others to aim at...we both look down in shame. in a moment of time, everything is groovy. but that is no way to live. i can't live in a box.

i wish i could just have graduated long ago and drifted away on the canals of time....the feeling of numbness....I was never sad only numb....i'm falling....i want to swim in oblivion once more. no responsibility. one way trip.

I miss having someone in my life that at least mostly understood me. I am going crazy.