I don't know why I want to push my way into being friends with Krista, or even trying. There is some part of me that wants to, but there is always that voice in the back of my head that tells me I run on an entirely different timetable that other people. Whenever I am finally ready to do something the whole world is on a different page and life ( Read more... )

Maybe your first love is the one that sticks with you because it's the only person who will ever receive all of you. After that, you learn better. But, most of all, no matter what, a piece of you forever remains left behind in the heart of the one you loved - a piece no future lover could ever get, no mater what. That piece holds innocence - the ( Read more... )

I suppose the good thing about spending most of my free time to smoke with Abb and then take naps is that I have a lot more dreams I can remember upon waking. I have been trying not to reflect so much on the whole situation going on in my life right now with work and friends and whatnot and have been escaping through REM sleep. This morning I had a ( Read more... )

You don't hold me at the worst times - the few times when I wish someone would. When I am limp and smelling of river water and crying desperate tears. You say goodnight at eight at night. You always try to be with me when I want to be alone, when I want her to be the one next to me. You have so many strikes against you its beyond me why you don't ( Read more... )

I dreamt I had graduated college and I applied for a job at a pizza place because they didn't open until noon, so I could sleep in. If you accused me of lacking ambition, I wouldn't argue.

I feel like I can only get close to a person as a friend if they are single. I never want to be that person who gets into a relationship and ditches their friends. The romantic myth is such a crock of shit. Shove it up your ass.

Everyone wants to see me love. They're rooting for me. They're pitying me. I have been sitting on the sidelines in games of the heart, perpetually placing potential suitors in the penalty box. Everyone thinks I should have been ready yesterday. Everyone says to clear away the cobwebs. The question is: am I ready within myself?

Via Chicago - Wilco ( Read more... )

I miss the improv game in summer theater. Sometimes I wish I didn't quit drama after I graduated. I could be a comic :)

someday, you will ache like i ache