literally the widest spectrum of emotions i have ever experienced from 9 yesterday morning till like an hour ago. i dunno.

i am pretty miserable right now.

SO
ANXIOUS
ALL THE TIME.

school is fine, i guess everything is fine or more than fine but I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT THE DAY AND HOW AND EXACTLY WHEN ALL THE TIME ALL THE FUCKING TIME

thanksgiving was good basically except i forced myself to be really anxious or just was really anxious and was fidgeting a lot more than usual and almost started crying for no reason? and my mom's really good friend took me aside and was just like "sweetie, youre gonna be okay." if i watched myself i'd be so scared sometimes. anyway the turkey was ( Read more... )

here is some stuff that i feel like i should write down ( Read more... )

i cordially invite the month of november to suck my dick ( Read more... )

HALLOWEEN IS THE GREATEST DAY OF ALL THE DAYS ( Read more... )

last night i went to lucy's halloween party, i was gay dumbledore (gumbledore?) and i danced a lot to sandstorm and jackson 5, parties are a formula a lot but i had fun. now it is fall and i am writing an english paper. i hope actual halloween is fun too. i love halloween but i am probably not in the perfect state for it this year. i wanna go to

this morning i woke up it was raining and i checked my SAT scores and my math stayed the same it is eternally always and forever the same score till the end of time it has been for months and months and months and there is nothing i or anyone else can do about it. but my combined is now the exact score i wanted to break so that's a good thing i ( Read more... )

i just read all my entries from this time last year and thats when i first started really doing all the things i do now on a regular basis, and i guess it was confusing and really fun for me a year ago and now i feel sort of pathetic jaded. i think its just this ridiculous first semester stuff. every saturday night i get really sad and dont want to ( Read more... )