im a fuck up

i love matthew scott baer more than anything in the world

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schools starting sooooon; yay yay yay

&& im getting my braces off next monday

&& i get to go see dave and matt in 12 days

&& then the next weekend is daves sisters wedding

so i get to see them twice in a row

it still hasnt really kicked in that theyre in college; idk its weird
i was real upset last nightt && i was lookin at ( Read more... )

my boysss are in college now; ive been quite sad

but in 26 days i will be with them! and i get to go to a football game which will make my life! im so excited

matt is fittin in just fine and hes made friends and im real happpy cause i was afraid he was gonna leave second semester

dave has partied every nighttt but who could blame em

he got in trouble ( Read more... )

um; ive felt numb since 1245 last night  when i got a call from matt who i met in north carolina=love of my life haha; that his semi big brother, idk what to call him cause its kind of confusing, but he died && thats been the only thing on my mind ( Read more... )

im worried dave didnt make it home okay last night

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this happens everytime; i swear, its gotten old; promise

he leaves in a week && im gonna cry my eyes out

matt knows nothing about me && dave; i kinda feel bad

ugh, stupid stupid stupid

and matt that i met in north carolina is being a controllin jealous freak; when he has no right to say anything ( Read more... )

so yesterday i went to stacies a little bit after schoool. and we were supposed to go down the beach with andy and harry but things got messed up

..so we kinda just chilled around for a couple hours. and we had to wait for harry to be done work..so like 730- 8 harry came and picked us up and then we had to the marlton walmart to pick andy up haha

and ( Read more... )

davee is leaving for florida tomorrow morningg..im sadd..he wont be back to sunday so im not gonna talk to him for a while

and its not going to be a goood trip for him and i know hes gonna be really sad the whole time hes there and theres not much i can do

=(

..so ive been thinking an awful lot about our situation..and how i see it is dave has been ( Read more... )

im not really allowed to get mad..but im a jealous girl, and i hate when dave hangs out with nicole..

and ive been in a bad mood because yesterday was prom and they went together

and im being really gay

ugh djkfghdfg

i have found a boy who makes me smile alot alot alot and im still gettin to know him. that makes me really happy. and i already know that i can talk to him about anything =)...sucks hes leavin in 3 months for college, just my luck

i had the most amazing birthday in the whole world, i would not of wanted it to go any better =)

ahhh sdfjgdkjfg =)

i dont think youre allowed to miss two people so much at the same time ( Read more... )