i love you, timothy sean collery.

croatia has, yet again, left me depressingly incredible and heartbroken and loving all at once.
i can't wait to move there and be with the people i love and the one that i love and the everything that i love.
only a couple more years.
this will keep me alive, it will, it will.

i haven't written here in quite a while ( Read more... )

"In the end, everyone loses everyone.
There was no invention to get around that, and so I felt, that night,
like the turtle that everything else in the universe was on top of."

as of today, consider me disappeared.

have you ever just sat at the beach, at sunset, blanked your mind completely and just soaked everything in? you should try it sometimes.
it's invigorating.

partiers; self-obsessed/self-concerned; fashion obsessed; still way behind the years as far as maturity ( Read more... )

five days away from Anthony's birthday and from Jamie's deathday.
goddamnit.

RIP Andrew
June 11th, 2009
Say hi to my brother for me. May angels lead you in, my friend.

the dream i had last night was just bizarre. and random. and none of it went together or made sense. i'm not going to say what exactly was going on, but i'll just give you interpretations of everything that happened.

( deranged? )

i am highly skilled at lying. to everyone. i can lie my face off and not feel bad ( Read more... )

call me stupid, ugly, dumb, bitchy, whatever. i don't care what you call me.
but weight jokes? uncalled for.
i'm not fat, but i'm not where i should be. and that is the fault of only my medication, and nothing else.
so fuck anyone who needs to poke fun at that, because i'm not laughing.