this is a happy entry. just in case someone i really want happy decides to read this again.
you make life so much better.
thankyou.

ok, what the poop is going on?. i just want everything smooth. im not digging this. gahhh. man. poop.

you think that's cool? you think that's okay? remember who i am. remember everything. what goes around comes around, so i don't know what you expect.

this is a complete fucking waste of time.
fuck this.
fucking waste.

i just feel like you've replaced me with something that should never override me.

i just don't know anymore. is it true? and if it is, then is my neurosis disfiguring it in my mind? or is it false? and if it is, then i'm scared and impressed by my instincts. and this goes for two things.
i will pray for beautiful things.

i'm kind of worried.
i've changed so much. i hope this isn't when my luck runs out.

so much work.
so worried.
fucking shit.

everything be good! everything be good!

i hope i don't mess things up.