he's so gone.
i can't believe he won't talk to me.
it's kind of ridiculous.
i can't let this happen again.

damn northwood.
and all the memories i have there.

I don't trust anyone. And I don't tell people things about me, hardly ever. And it's times like this, when I'm feeling really down and shitty that no one can help me, because I CAN'T tell them what's wrong with me and I don't feel like taking the time to tell them and I'm scared they'll betray me, and mostly, they won't know how to help me anyways ( Read more... )

i would kill for a biscuit. a sausage biscuit.
and for my basketball skills to come back.

so that last post was the biggest jinx ever.
i got caught skipping by my mom about 20 minutes after i posted that.
screw friday the 13th.

GROUNDED FOR A WEEK.

I'm in first period. The bell is going to ring in 9 minutes ( Read more... )

So this is going to be one of those really lame and gay posts because I'm sitting in small business waiting for the bell to ring (in 10 minutes). This morning I got some news. It doesn't really even concern me, and yet now I'm feeling so completely depressed and disappointed and used. I want to go back to last year. Try and do some things ( Read more... )

i miss julian. me and him bonded this summer. basically, he took care of me when i was drunk, and we got drunk together. and i felt like when i had a problem and didn't know what to do, i could call him or go to him and he could help me out. i haven't talked to him in almost a week. i left him a message but i think his phone is dead. i miss him ( Read more... )

I enjoy being a teenager so much. Just riding around with my friends doing stupid shit. Even the drama, because without it, everything would be just too happy. there'd be no suspense in hardly anything. this has been a fantastic week.

i can't stand being in my house any longer. if i had my own car, i would just take it wherever i wanted.

darrell was one of those people you thought to be immortal. like, nothing would ever kill him. he was so loud, cocky, and funny. i really really miss gym. i miss the weight room. and i almost miss watching him check himself out in the mirrors while lifting weights. it's incredible how shit like this happens. and it's also just surreal and leaves me ( Read more... )