over one year. Hard to believe it has been over one year since i last updated this fucking thing. ok enough said.

So here is the fucking deal. I like this girl, but she doesn't like me. she has a boyfriend who's only ambition is to own the restaurant that he works at. to make it worse she is trying to set me up with her Wall-mate. I don't want to date her fucking wall-mate. What the fuck is worng with me. Why the fuck can't I get her off my mind? I've had the ( Read more... )

So my grandmother passed away. and the funeral is this week....

I'm going to keep this short... My grandma is dying... Please pray for her... not to get better but pray that God may take her soon so she doesn't have to suffer.

i'm a dog... maybe not in the physical sense, but in  certain way I am. It's no secret that it's hard for me not to talk and if i'm even the least bit comfortable around you yyou'll know my whole life story by the time i finally shut up... now about this time you are asking "What the fuck does this have to do with a dog?" well by the time i'm done ( Read more... )

And So it Goes - Billy Joel

In every heart there is a room
A sanctuary safe and strong
To heal the wounds from lovers past
Until a new one comes along

I spoke to you in cautious tones
You answered me with no pretens e
And still I feel I said too much
My silence is my self defense

And every time I've held a rose
It seems I only felt the thorns
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depressing entries upset me that's why i deleted the one i wrote a few days ago. i'll continue this at a later date...

We do a lot for the ones we love. We would drop everything we are doing and rush to their assistance. Of course there are different types of love. There is the love of one's neighbor. It is a most basic type of love and is really nothing more than akknowledgement, a simple holding open of doors, and a happy smile as you pass ( Read more... )

There's a fine, fine line between a lover and a friend ( Read more... )

Life is not a game you can't still win or lose, or at least you aren't supposed to be able too. All you can do is live it to the best of your ability... well I don't think I have. I mess a lot of things up. I'm jobless, pennyless, and I just want to give up. Maybe i should, but if I do give up I admit defeat. I refuse to lose, and even though I may ( Read more... )