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[pnkribbon29]

I'm really starting to get scared about this year. Its really beginning to sink in that I'm not gonna see that much of zach. I knew it was gonna be tough, but now I'm starting to feel it. Its so scary, because I just can;t get the thought out of my mind that we might drift apart. I feel like such a bitch girlfriend, cause, I honestly dont know why

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[sweetlikekiwi]

hey...i know exactally what your going through. Trust me. maybe not the exact same thing, but pretty close. I've taken a lot of things out on danny because of this whole college thing with my parents and it hurts him more because he's going through it too. So I totally understand waht you mean by you feel like your making him do things to make you feel better, because honestly I think I've done that to danny a few times over the course of this. Its a really hard thing to go through and come to terms with. I'm still having a hard time deal with it, and Danny just left for morningside today so now i have to grasp a whole new presepective of it instead of him just being at home and me being here. Now hes actually in sioux city and it just makes it that much harder. Its just something you gotta work at though, even though its hard. haha and just like you I'm kinda giving myself advice too because I bitch and complain about us being apart to him everyday haha but its true though. The only way that it will work is if you trust yourselves

[sizzlepie58]

Alison my dear, I want you to listen to Sarah. You are not a bad person, you are completely normal. If you are a bad person, then we are both bad people, because I have felt and done the exact same things you are talking about. I have seen you and zach grow as a couple and I know that you will make it. I know that you want him to be so happy, but at the same time, it's almost impossible for you to be happy without him. The important thing is to just hang in there for the most part. Call everynight, send him snail mail and email, text messages, and luckily you can visit him on many weekends. If you ever want to talk please call me, I have experience in this field lol. I know zach loves you darling, and I know you two can make it through. I just want you to know that it's ok that this is hard, it's supposed to be!!! Just try your hardest to enjoy your senior year to the fullest, i know it will be great!! Much love...

[ahazelnuts]

well here i was ready to leave a smart sounding comment to this jounal that made me sad and i was gonna try and make you feel better and then i read these other 2 comments and i realized that i have no experience in this field and that what they said sounds right so listen to those girls! especially sarah!!! she did it all last year. you can do it, cuz u do realize that u now have full access to bailey at all times so use her! lol well i have a class at 8am that i should be going to so if you need me u know where to call or how...if you dont well email me and i will teach u how to use the phone lol .......o come on that was suposed to be kinda funny, just a lil? not at all ok fine, well then im just gonna go ahead and go and say that i love you alison and u know that i couldnt of survived without u so i hope u know that i will always b here for you! love ya!

[sneffylea]

You know, I kind of know what you mean too. Jeff is still in Des Moines...and I know that he wants to see me...and yet there are times that I say "yeah you just don't want to talk to me" or "yeah, you just don't want to see me" even though I KNOW he does. I kind of think we do that just for verification, just for them to say "of COURSE I want to see you, I love you! What are you, crazy?" because that makes us feel better. I never say it with that intention , but after reading your post and thinking about it, I know thats what I do. And Alison, don't fret too much. Zach is only 45 minutes away from you. Jeff is 2 1/2 hours away from me, and I know we are going to be ok. I love you! Call me if you ever want to talk, I totally understand what you are going through! :)

[sweetlikekiwi]

and in response to that, if Danny and I can make it 4 hours away then you'll definetly be able to make it 45 minutes away. Lucky!! :)