i think the sad fact that sadistic life makes you feel so boring. is the most exciting fact of life. im tired of doing what i always do. my heart aches for shit i dont understand. seems like my mood is off from week to week. so i wonder when im still in my prime .what do i have to go on for when the rest is supposed to be over soon. a quater if not ( Read more... )

well today was just about as ironic as anything else. it was so weird i think there is a lot of stuff in the mix that im missing out about. i dont know what to do about it either. im not sure hoe i feel about a bunch of stuff. some ahs to do with current lvoe interests and other has to do with some foul ideas about things being not so steady.like ( Read more... )

well as things have come down to things as they always do. i think im going to end up being alone for a while now.things with me and my current interest arent working out so well. its just sucks that there is no fighting no hating nothing like that. we just both realize that we might end up getting hurt.so i find one more girl who is ready to leave ( Read more... )

so i ist here more intoxicated than life itself. but i still find overjoy in all the mistakes i make while i write this sentence.and kind of odd to concetrate on things like these. it almost makes everything that much more pleaseant. things arent what they used to be. change is catching up faster than i thought. the worst part of everything is that ( Read more... )

i was recently watching this show on the tube. its called californication. the only about it was that the guy reminds me of me.almost everything about him . its really good to think someone else might relate in the way i do.but the funny thing is that one line he says. which for some reason most people dont ever seem to understand. well the line ( Read more... )

today has been more than complimentary. it has changed me. as a part of this whole composition of things that have complimented my way of thinking. nothing is what it ever seems. and ive always known this but this time i have proof. so i feel like a fool but at the same time. i feel great.

nothing new to change the way i feel today. im trying to run away from a feeling that has no ending. ive never been so inscure about anything i have done. and i have no actual recollection as to why. ive always won in this department. ieve never been the one who stays hung up.and even so i tried to do all the things to avoid feeling this way. but i ( Read more... )

the last couple of dsys have been arranged very strangely. cant think of any reason for these kind of events but they are how they are. ive been doing this whole up shake up of what the tradition of my foundations are. in this phase of what im calling life. it seems that nothing gets me to where i want to go. the last times ive tried these ( Read more... )

so today is affectionate and irritating all at the same time. it has the random notion of making believe in things arent factual not in any close to realistic. my heads roams around with these idead as a notion that this might be the future. i cant no longer go out and stay frustrated with the manic thoughts that seem to come out. my heart starts ( Read more... )

so i had a crazy day today. but i have realized what part of loving someone might actually be. its the fact that you have to understand that it will never be the way you would wanted it to be. so i stand here so alone. listening to every stupid fucking love . like ive never cared about anyway.l but thats okay. and im truly sorry for anyone else ( Read more... )